Roll Call 65

That's sad. I'm sorry your relationship isn't better.

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Need to study for chess examination!

i know he didnt mean to hurt my feelings... and i told him that. i think he was trying to get me to see that i live in fear,.. fear of success etc. but he went the wrong way about it. im glad he apologized to me and recognized his mistake. a lot of Ts would get defensive and blame the client if they said the T hurt their feelings...or say something like 'im sorry u feel that way'. i know my T is human and makes mistakes and im glad he is willing to admit it when it happens.

thanks for the support guys ...

thanks guys. im usually sticking with just talking to my mom on the phone.

I slept yesterday, yesterday night and last night as well as all day today. Even when taking my Concerta and drinking coffee.

Everyone is super tired here it must be the weather. Snow and then now it's melting.

Sleeping on methylphenidate is like heroin.. it's so relaxing.

Just feeling like a failure accomplishing nothing but I'm a bit better.

I feel like crap and I'm very depressed. Tomorrow I have to order in food, etc and my November appointments are going to be another day closer. I don't want to deal with it at all. I'm sick of everything.

i'm sorry i keep saying the wrong things to everyone and i really need confirmation that someone doesn't hate me

i don't know why i asked. asking immediately invalidates the answer

All's good PM!

Don't worry =]

I don't hate you psycho mantis

I just took my usual 800 mgs of Seroquel. Feeling better.

whats everyone up to tonight?

Just watching TV, and waiting until I feel sleepy. How about you?

basically waiting til i feel sleep too but im eating skittles in bed.

I'm eating Saltines lol.

My P has me at 75 mg.

It may be curbing some symptoms, but I shan't speak too soon. I've also been consuming less caffeine. Maybe the coffee is driving me nuts. Reduced symptoms:
- weaker (virtually absent) response to people's faces in photographs
- mean insult words not popping into my head
Down sides:
- less motivation

I feel a bit more awake now just not focused or motivated much.

I realized how much time I've wasted. I'm sick of this. I rarely have any fun in life. I don't have a life. I don't see why I'm doing this. I don't know what's happening and I'm getting better at subconsciously blocking any fresh information. I don't know anything. I want to learn as much as I can.

I hope to get better enough to contact some friends and I was almost at that point but I think the alcohol reset it so I have to wait even longer to get better.

I'm gonna read half of my book play for English and do the questions in the morning hopefully.

I got a 4 on the schizophrenia screening test on this site.

http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/schizophrenia.htm

I got a 0. So we are not schizophrenic.

First night of mirtazipine. It knocked me out pretty quickly. Bit hungover this morning but that's the best night sleep I've had in a long time. I hope it makes me happy quickly. Not in 4weeks. Now. Hopefully it will at least sedate my anxiety.

I got 40. It's just a test it's not a diagnosis tool so don't worry about it.

I get it. But I am bipolar so it is good to check sometimes.

I got 404:Page Not Found

AHHHHH what's wrong with me!!!!!!!

im up. playing with my hair. cant sleep

I've been up since around 3:30. Just playing Solitaire and reading forums. I'll probably have to nap later.