Roll Call 70

That's about 30 dollars US.

150mg 1mg per spray so 75 cigarettes because that's 2mg per cigarette even thought there's about 20-30mg in each cigarette. So 3-4 packs of cigarettes which is cheaper I guess especially in the US but some people might have the urge to do a couple sprays. 1-2mg is fine for me. Eventually I stop being tired and the cognitive enhancement takes place although I've been vaping non stop for hours all night sometimes.

Edit: I need to start managing my money better but way better than spending hundreds on booze and other things.

Another edit: It's not a prescription but I bet if you do get a prescription, it's cheaper depending on insurance and stuff.

My mom went to work. I built a fire!!!! uploadfromtaptalk1453406807657.jpg

oopz its sideways. i assure u my fire is upright.

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Haha nice! I knew there was other hypocylptomanics out there xp

Ugh I had a few mistakes last night for my job. I hope they understand that it was my first night alone on the job. Fingers crossed I don't get fired. On the plus side I just scored an interview for what sounds like could be a perfect job for me. I need a job during the day when the kids are gone or I get too lonely and start thinking of all the **** ups I've made. Man I'm hoping to do well on the interview. I can't stand much more of my first job.

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I was going to make some witty comment about how cool it was your fire was horizontal, but instead...

I kinda thought when you said you had "built" a fire, you did some along these lines:



I miss fires! Parents new house just has a gas fire, but it's not the same as a proper one.

Good luck!!!

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Haha... is that burning man? I would like to build a fire like that but I don't wanna get arrested

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OOH I love fires...well contained ones that is.....not a pyro....

Seeing t tomorrow. There are few things I'd like to do less. I hate going to therapy it feels like such a waste of time. I wish it weren't mandatory. I need the meds but I don't need to know my t's life story. I think she gets more therapy than I do. I miss my old t. She was all about cbt and the process. I never had to compete to be heard.

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I've always had cbt T's they are the best...how did you end up with this one?

went to see the fill-in therapist...

they want to change my therapist!!!

again!

I got 24/40 on my chapter 2 psychology test. I'm not good at the beginning stuff about brain chemistry etc, hopefully I do better and can squeak by

That sounds awful... I'm sorry. Is there another T you could try?

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Wow seriously

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Ya.. intro to psych is more abt brain stuffs.

Wanted to comment on your earlier post. I admire your strength during all of thia. I know how easy it is to just give up and shut down. I think you are amazing.

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ugh yes. they want to change my regular therapist to this fill in one. i said "no. why?" and theyre like "your regular therapist is an administrator now and has less time to see people but we would be happy to put you permanantly with the one your seeing today".

ugh this is the third time they did this.

i get like a new therapist every year.

this is not only why i hate this clinic but why im not making progress.

It's the same story as at the clinic I go to. Sorry this is happening. I like my t and pdoc there. But I've missed like 2 or 3 appointments with my t.

i just wish they werent doing this to me. i JUST started to really open up to my regular therapist. she has experience and training. this fill in one JUST got licensed this year to do counseling. i feel like im more of a complicated case. my regular therapist even said they put me with her because i needed someone more experienced to handle my case.

unless they are all just effing with me...

So I'll be taking a train for my quick trip up to NY. Luckily, I only have to change trains once, in Chicago

Hey wave hello when you stop by

lol I will

this wild pack of bros keeps interrupting me when i go down to the apartment gym. critical bro levels were reached when they started leaving their vape stuff all over the windowsill. who brings their vape to the gym exact ly? ??? ? ?? ???

So if I want to keep my psychiatrist, who is phenomenal I will have to pay out some serious money. Notice I haven't been suffering too much because of her. I get more depressed at night, which is almost normal, I wish it was a little less but feeling that is better than feeling nothing.

Anyway, I called my Pdoc and asked their plans they accept. The cheapest one has a deductible of, get this, $600, on top of the $144 a month, and co pays.

Okay now I'm going to vent:
IT'S DISCRIMINATION! I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO HAVE BI POLAR 1, SCHIZOPHRENIA, PANIC DISORDER, AKATHESIA, ANXIETY DISORDER, DEPRESSION! I'm BEING HELD HOSTAGE, BING DROWNED IN DEBT AS I ALREADY AM. YOU WANT ME TO GIVE YOU 600 BEFORE YOU EVEN HELP ME EVEN WHILE IM GIVING YOU 144?! YOU'RE A CROOK! I COULD GO ON DISABILITY, WRITE MY BOOK, LIVE WITH MY MOTHER. BUT MY PSYCHIATRIST HELPS ME SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE THAT ROUTE. ALL RESPECT TO THOSE WHO DO THIS, MY LATER PSYCHIATRST AMOST MADE IT SO.

THIS IS HORSE ****. I WORK 40 HOURS A WEEK AND IM LIVING IN POVERTY AND THEY WANT ME TO PAY THIS MUCH? CROOKS. CROOKS CROOKS.

if YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WAY I SEE HEALTHCARE IT GOES LIKE THIS: GIVE THEM YOUR ENTIRE WALLET AND YOU CAN HAVE YOUR PILLS, THAT WHICH, ONE COULD DIE FROM NOT HAVING. SCHIZOPHRENIA AND BIPOLAR IS NO LAUGHING MATTER!

600 + (144 x 12) IS HOW MUCH THEY WANT TO ROB ME FOR, PLUS--COPAYS! I DID THGE MATH, $2,328 A YEAR. NO KIDDING. AND IF I DON'T GET HEALTH INSURACE THEN I GET A $677 PENALTY IN MY TAXES. ROBBERY. DISCRIMINATION, UNIVERSALHELLCARE, WHY NOT MAKE ME SIT AT THE BACK OF THE BUS WHILE YOUR AT IT, OR WHILE YOU'RE AT IT, KICK ME IN THE FACE WHIE IM DOWN AND TAX ME FOR IT.

THOSE FIRST RESPONDERS TO THE 911 ATTACK HAD NO MEDICAL ASSISTANCE. THAT'S HOW MUCH THEY CARE, MEANWHILE THEIR DROPPING LIKE FLIES.

tHE UNITED STATES IS A JOKE, THE ONLY THING UNITING ARE THE LOBBIEST'S WHO DESTROY THE US AND HOLD IT FOR RANSOM BY PUSHING MONEY INTO OUR GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS POCKETS.

**** THIS PLACE.

stupid bros

I have a $3,000 deductible, and a $176/month premium. But my copay for mental health professionals is only $25/session, and generic drugs are only $5/prescription.

Deductibles for most plans only cover things like tests and hospitalizations. Office visits you will pay a copay, not full price until you meet the deductible. That's my understanding, at least. I hope that's how it works!