Roll Call 72

I remember when I had my first episode there was this black van with blacked out windows that was outside my house for weeks then when I moved back in with my parents the same van was parked around the corner from their house. One night I went out there and let down the tires. I thought it was police or undercover people doing surveillance on me. Now that I think back i probably shouldn't have let the tires down. #sorrynotsorry

im eating bbq

I hear a constantly rumbling outside like theres a helicopter or car running. I texted my neighbors about it and they say they dont hear it. Idk whats wrong with me.

my mom keeps texting me to ask if i am ok and how am i doing...its making me nervous. i keep telling her im fine. i did something tonight that i dont really understand. i wont tell her though. i hate when shes worried about me it just feels so uncomfortable.

to those that need them.
Pretty uneventful night I'm just too tired to do much of anything.
My Dd's team lost their game tonight . They have 2 more coming up so they can redeem themselves lol.
What's everyone up to? I'm sitting in front of the fire getting ready to curl up on tithe couch with an apple.

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i just ate some chicken noodle soup and im talking to someone through text

I'm wondering if I'm not too tired to sleep.

Got to go up to school tomorrow to get measured for cap and gown for graduation.

Worried I'll mess up in the social situation or whatever

i lost some weight but im stil 145 lbs. im really about to lose this weight. all i ate today was some steak (protein), soup, and a few gummy bears.

I've just taken a zopiclone pill to help me sleep. The only downside to zopiclone is that they leave a horrible taste in your mouth the next morning, it's like a chemical taste

I use klonopin to help me sleep

Lately I've been using vistaril to help me sleep,
But lately for some reason it hasn't been helping
I don't know if I've built a tolerance for it or something or if it's something I'm doing differently that makes it not work anymore
I drink caffeine sometimes after 5pm but I used to do that all the time and I'd still get sleepy with the vistaril so I don't know whats up

Oh well
Hopefully I get some sleep tonight, though

Anyway, my day was uneventful too
I made some homemade cinnamon rolls and those turned out pretty tasty,
But as far as things go, I didn't do anything today except worry over what I was going to wear tomorrow

Just had an argument with my mum lol her armchair psychiatrist act is getting boring now. She thinks I'm trying to make myself ill by skipping meds sometimes, but I genuinely forget to take them. It's only anti depressants I occasionally miss not any antipsychotic meds because I have an injection for that. Then she said I drink too much and that if I come off my meds she will have me sectioned.

Using a benzo for sleep is probably not a good idea, too much addiction possibility.

Sorry you're arguing with your mom, unsure, I'm sure she means best

i used to use a benzo for sleep while using ambien but i quit doing that because addiction issue. i only use it for anxiety now like i should. BUT my pdoc told me it would help me sleep so? i believed her and used it for that.

Good Evening Friends...
I'm on UStream with picture in picture,
Just watching the world go by..
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Wooohooo!

Benzos knock me out, which I guess is good for anxiety.

Im just wondering what would happen if you could go one day without being negative?
ATYPICALLY!

It's ok Hyper, maybe the bullies will go to sleep soon!
Your o.k. Kid, you really are!

Good evening guys. I just went on a miniature frosting binge before hitting the hay. I couldn't help it. It had to be done. Tasty, tasty gluttony.

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Good morning everyone. Hope you all are having a good day.

Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day!

Good morning.
I'm working today before I nap lol. What's everyone else up to?
Kids are on vacation next week so that will be nice.

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