Roll Call 73

Sounds like you are still dealing with depression.

really?...

:/ :/ :/

that didnt come across my mind but i suppose i am. i keep looking for external rewards to make me happy since i have nothing internal to sit upon.

ive been going through about an 8 month battle with depression. since august. ever since i got burned out from doing school the first half of 2015...

idk...school feels like such a chore.
maybe this is why im having trouble in school and not liking it right now...

Depression can last for years. I've been on an AD for 8 years and I still struggle with it. I'm on Effexor and I feel a bit better than I did without it. IMO depression doesn't just go away.

i guess im under the impression that it can just go away for me. for about 6 months i felt a strong depression but the past few months its been not as strong. thats why i dont know if its negative symptoms OR depression. because sometimes i dont feel depressed i just feel unmotivated and tired.

in this case it could be still a depression considering i was in it strong for 6 months.

I hope that's the case and it will just go away.

I'm a mess today. My head is loud and I have thought of nothing but self injuring.

We're missing a lot of people in roll call . I hope they come back soon.

trying to kik angelique and its not working

She hasn't answered mine. Hope she's okay

Sorry, i keep having to switch my phones because the battery on one only lasts about 2 hours now. I conked out after i ate.
Everytime i switch I lose the last message or so.

Thank you. I googled illegal eviction earlier and that's what my landlord and his "team" have been doing. I'm scared and I'll have to get out of here asap before he locks me out. I'm not sure where to go. I'm overwhelmed with the enormity of the job. :/ Thank you both for thinking of me.

Good morning. I see t today. I'm torn on telling her about the . I don't want to be sent to the hospital.
Hope everyone has a great day.

Gmorning bb's

Pdoc in half an hour :/

morning.

woke up for a long time in the middle of the night

Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

He couldn't do anything for the tiredness.

Has anyone tried Sarcosine for negative symptoms?

I'm thinking about trying it, but I'd love some feedback before I possibly waste my money on something that doesn't work (or harms me).

Thanks.

There's a derivative that works 4 times better as a nootropic but you have to buy it online I think. I think it's a waste of money but I'm still doing research on nootropics. Unless it's cheap, it would be worth it.

Thanks.

If you can think of the name of the derivative please let me know.

feeling ok today. no voices today as of right now. freaked my T out last night . he thought i was texting him some vague suicide note but i really meant i was going to sleep. i told him i ttook a bunch of seroquel but it was poor word choice bc i meant i wanted to sleep not OD. but he thought i was ODing. he called me right after i sent it and i said hello? and he said HOW MANY DID U TAKE?? i was like omg im so sorry i didnt mean it like that i didnt mean to scare you... i feel really bad about that. but he said it was ok. he told me to let him know in the morning how i was, so i did..i told him the voices arent talking , he said yay and to keep taking my PRNs. but i still feel really bad about scaring him..

angelique what happened to the kik???

I haven't tried it but I would if I had neg symptoms, its supposed to be mildly effective only.

I'm curious too, never heard of this or it's safety.....

I'm not going to buy it (or anything else) before I clear it with my psychiatrist.