Roll Call 86

Make that 4 years. Last month was the anniversary of my last hospital stay. That's when they took me off of it.

I take a lot of pictures when I'm having fun and at work a lot of notes....both things help me remember.....I would say I probably still have a decent memory but it's not as good as it needs to be for me to do the work I do.....the boyfriend was telling me that I have it better than a lot of people which is probably true but I still want this evaluation if there is some intervention they can provide.

I'm sorry your memory is bad too.

Nope. It was 3 years ago. It was 2014

Really bored and lonely. I hate the weekends. They need to go away.

Noooooo....weekends rule!

I'm thinking a nap is in order. It's cold and I'm bored.

Took an extra 10mg Abilify this morning and will take one at night. It's kinda making me feel tired. But the Concerta will kick in soon.

Then I'll be on track for taking my meds as prescribed.

For me it sucks. Everyone i know is working on the weekends. My mom doesnr want to see me either. But she never does anyway.

I think ive come to the conclusion that ill never make anymore friends.

I make so many friends in the hospital I hope it's the same when I go back next month.

No sell. The car's passenger window did not go down. The power door locks didn't work. The radio didn't work. A lug nut was missing and many of them were different. A tire was flat when I got there. The hatchback hydraulics didn't work. It had a too fast too furious noisy exhaust. There was no jack or manual. Worst of it, when I checked the oil--no oil! They wanted me to pay $2400 for it. A 2001 Toyota celica. I would have paid 1k for that given all that's wrong with it but they just put a $700 clutch kit in and I didn't want to insult the guy. Perils of buying used cars.

I just want a nice sporty car. Next week I should have 3K so well fgo from there.

OH, I knew you where trouble when you walked in.
So shame on me now
I flew me places that I've never been.
so you put me down

Im not sure what types of used cars you are looking at. But i suggest a website or app like carvana or some sort of used car medium.

Are you buying through individual sellers?
Not always the best. I tend to run a carfax through on most cars if used. Sometimes even if new.

My stang is used. Found out not until a few months later its been eating oil. Not too worried about it since i havent been driving much. But someone dogged it out! I hate buying used stangs but i cant conplain since i didnt buy the car.

Finally got matched with a therapist on the therapy app after a 24 hour wait. They say it takes 12-24 hours to match you to a therapist. Makes me feel like they really took their time. 🤞🏽

Waiting for my food.
I can't believe how cold it is. The wind is vicious. Glad I don't have to be out there. It's cold enough in the house. I've spent half of my day in front of the fire.
Feeling pretty good today. No symptoms so far.

I just cooked homemade burritos

Sounds excellent

This therapy app is taking forever.

Like it took them 24 hours to match me. And then they said i was being transferred to the therapists chat line that i chose (out of 3 that were offered to me). But i still havent talked to them. Itll prob wont be til tomorrow til i get to talk to her.

On the other hand shes a LCSW. So i feel confident. I read her bio and everything. And shes licensed in my state. So thats cool that they match me with someone in my state. I hope shes good. I also get the option of choosing someone else if needed at anytime. Like real life.

On the downside they only have monthly payments. So i paid 150 dollars to do this. With the package I chose. So i hope this is good.

Im actuallt drunk and i havent been drunk in months. Its this liquor that got me. Brandy.

I don't love brandy. Now tequila...that's another story lol. I love the feeling of being drunk but hate how I feel after. That's why I really don't drink. Just the occasional margarita or glass of wine.

I usually have been drinking beer and dont get drunk. But two days ago i got brandy. Its all gone practically. It was just bought to spice things up a bit. I havent been drunk in months! Ive just been drinking beer.

Chinese food tonight yall!

Excited

Newtus is sounds delicious! Where's mine?

Coming right up green!

Lolll

aw your so sweet Newtus!!

Afternoon guys.
Feeling rubbish today. Maybe cos I didn't take my tablet last night and I was drinking (which is why I didn't take it). Don't think the combination of alcohol and no meds has done me any favours. Had a good night though, me and my friend finished off our bottle of rum and watched nostalgic dvds. Good night.