Roll Call 86

Odd, my med's at most I pay a little under 7 bucks and I use medicare to get them.

Well for some reason they dont take my part D of medicare. So i have to find some place else. Its crazy. Apparently my part d company was bouggt out by someone else.

Disclaimer: im drunk so im sorry but im dealing with something.

My mom is so upset with me posting negative things about her on instagram.

Apparently someone from her family told her i was posting things about her on facebook. Which i wasnt. It was instagram. Anyway, she doesnt want to talk to me and she said to me "let me get back to my sources to find out the truth". Really? She had never ever in her life took my word for anything.

Guys im so upsey i just wish my mom treated me like she treats my other sister. My sister and i have diff dads so because my mom hates my dad she treats me differently.

I wish i could tell you guys my life story

Like my mom, she doesnt like me at all. She never sees me and never spends time with me and wouldnt care if i didnt spend time with her. Yet she goes on 2 week vacations to see my sister. Its no linger about being the outcast of the family. I come from divorce and me and my sister dont have the same dad. My mom doesnt like me because of that. She doesnt trust me. But ive never trusted her.

She had emotionally, mentally and verbally abused me. Close to physical. Ive never known her love

newtus

I'm so sorry Newtus.

Common sense says that I'm at least a little psychotic right now.

Paranoia, derealization, depersonalization, and auditory hallucinations. Only a little little little bit but enough to know it's not right.

Common sense says I should go to a doctor.

I don't want to admit to people I'm not well and I don't want medication it's poison I just have to focus just breathe and relax and focus.

Anyone have any non-medical advice?

Hm.

I would say meditation and deep breathing but that never truly works. (Can you see im kidding?)

Can you talk to someone ?

Do you have anyone that can help you with reality checking?

How's everyone else feeling tonight? I'm feeling off. I think I just need sleep. No nap today.

I'm feeling horrible

I'm at a real low point

I'm sorry to hear that. Can you talk to your t?

No. He hates me

I aboslutely hate geodon
I have to eat at certain times of the day now and its really inconvenient

I'm sorry I didn't realize you were not getting along.

That sounds like a pita.

No, I don't really trust anyone about it. I'm very private about my thoughts and issues.

I'm trying to keep my mind off everything. I'm feeling a bit better now I'm not sitting all on my own.

I'm sitting with people and they're keeping me petty grounded. Not that I'm talking about stuff just if I hear or see something I know it's real because they're reacting to it as well.

Whats your dosage in the morning for breakfast and for dinner?

Just had to admit something hard to myself...and I don't know how it'll be accepted here.

No judgment here!

Well...

I'm transgender.

it's the lowest dose, 20mg twice a day

I'm proud of you for being honest and open with who you are No one should ever have to worry about judgment for being honest about these things.

No judgement here. I'm glad you admitted it to yourself so young