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Be kind to paranoid people

This black guy in group asked me if my hair was real. Ugh. I hate being black for so many reasons. Thats just one. I get constantly asked if my hair is real or if im wearing a weave or wig. I hate it soooo much.

Obviously my hair looks really good.

@newtus
I hate that too when I straighten my hair, for the most part my hair is a messy,curly fro so no one tends to ask if it's my real hair

@junkDNA
That looks like a good book I could definitely use something like that

@Angelique
I hope that you are having a good day too

We are gettig our roof done and it's been almost non stop banging all day
At first it made me nervous, but now I feel fine

i recommend the book

Im thankful my voices arent as bad as they used to be. My paranoia and delusions though, have never truly went away. Idk why.

Meds kill my voices for the most part. My paranoia is for life

I see. Seems similar to me.

Psychiatrist asked me if my akathisia was still there I said no and she said that's great then walked away..

I think to myself.. Why even bother helping myself? Forget about the fact that she didn't ask me about the Vyvanse.. Why not just take some money out of my account and get my own stimulants again?

Why not...

If she says no tomorrow, I'm not dealing with this anymore. How many psychiatrists have taken me off the stimulant and put me back on? It's torture. I can't take this **** anymore.

I sleep but it does nothing so I sleep again and so on until I wake up and immediately sleep again.

No more of this. If so, I'm refusing the antipsychotics because I'm just too tired.

Thank you Angelique

I hope you get your vyvase back. No one should be left to suffer.

There are many types of narcolepsy. Do you have a type? Provigil I hear really helps.

Good morning. Having a good day so far. Hoping I can nap it's rainy and dark today so there's a good chance. I'm not really tired but there isn't anything else to do.
What's everyone else got planned for the day? Hope you all have a good one.

have you ever heard of chronic fatigue syndrome

My wife is having a surgical procedure this morning. I've been having strange thoughts but I can't now.
I had to pick sitting in the crowded side of the waiting room because theres a baby at the other end. I hate being near babies.
I think my head might explode.

I'm sorry Gr3tta, hope the surgery goes well I don't like being around babies either, I mean they are cute and all but when they start crying.. Ugh.

Good Morning.

Went to Pdoc today. My regular doctor was away on a holiday so I met a temporary doctor. She was okay for the most part. She diagnosed me with Schizoaffective and Complex PTSD. Put me back to Olanzapine. She offered me Clozaril but I think it would be too strong for me, idk. Lithium for anti-depressant. I did ask for additional anti-anxiety med but she said let's see whether Olanzapine helps with it or not. And I also asked for Prazosin for my recurrent nightmares but again, she said Olanzapine might help with that. Complained about my ever lasting fatique too but she said that might be because I don't have a good sleep, so again and again, Olanzapine.So we'll see I guess. Went to pharmacy to pick up the meds but they didn't have a ready stock so gotta wait for a day or two.

Hope everyone has a good day

I hope it will help and you feel better 12 AM.

Thanks Gr3tta, I feel better already now.. A bit. At least there is some hope.

I wish your wife a speedy recovery!

Since im not really losing weight im gonna have to get bigger clothes. Ive been wearing the same shirt and jeans for months. They are the only thing that fit.

I think i wear a size 15 pants

I just got new underwears Shopping makes me feel better. But the empty wallet after that makes me sad lol.

hope she recovers quickly.

Olanzapine is a good drug. Good luck. Hope you are feeling better ASAP.

I hope the surgery went well!