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Its not new. I saw an ad in the 90s where radioshack was selling a mobile phone (one of those big ones where you had to carry around a bag that was the battery for it etc) for $799. So its not a new thing. Phones just have gotten smaller like everything else. Same price just smaller or smaller quantities

Woohoo. Down to. 138 as of just now! Of course I'm eating 3 Oreos to celebrate hahaha.

It was 54 when I got up this morning. It's 66 now.

Summer went so fast there? It's 92 here.

It sure did. It wasn't warm until July and it's been chilly for a couple weeks . I'd kill for some 92 degree weather. I don't think we hit 90 all summer.

Honestly thought it belonged there---it adds something.

i got dreadlocks!!!

Everyone but me has been up for awhile, I guess. The Ativan knocked me out and I slept until 1pm. Dear God.

I hope everyone is mostly ok.

Good afternoon/evening everyone. How is everyone?

I'm doing okay. Had therapy today, and talking to her I realized I actually had a good week for a change. New car, new phone and laptop, discovering I am going to the states for the holidays, it's all a lot of good things. I hope things continue on this route.

Evening.
Not doing as well as I was, having a lot of 'breakthrough symptoms' or whatever bullcrap they wanna call it. Feel like all I do on here is whinge sorry guys. But yeah, I feel ****ing weird and hearing crows at work. Think it's getting worse. In fact I know it's getting worse. Knew the olanzapine would stop working. I AM NOT going on clozapine. Guna ring my cpn and ask her advice. Sucks.

My mom and sister are going to a Guns and Roses concert tonight. I would have gone but there was no more tickets. I want to go to Eminem's "Fack Donald Trump" tour where I live just need to find people to go that like Eminem lol.

Today I'm going to try a new strain. I was very psychotic before I smoked the first strain and then more psychotic while on it but after that, I seemed to have less positive symptoms than before I smoked it O.O

I was posting posts in pain except this stuff helped me to tolerate it and be ok with the thoughts.

@ Newtus I get you with the heavy depressive symptoms since a teenager. I did have episodes of major mania with and without drugs but mostly with drugs. I could be schizoaffective but I feel like schizoaffective is more severe than schizophrenia alone sometimes because it's both mood disorder and schizophrenia.

I seem to have had bad positive symptoms, believing I have magic powers, seeing into the future and past, being psychic, feeling invincible, word salad, etc but my behaviour seemed to be ok. I wasn't laughing inappropriately that much although I was crying inappropriately and stuff. Idk. I'm not a psychiatrist although I know myself more than anyone else or I don't because sometimes I don't know what is real.

Although of course, the labels don't define us as who we are but at the same time, it could be brainwashing to think that by some secret organization or something.

Both sides of the reality I can feel the switch and switch it on and off if I feel like. Maybe cuz the meds. But maybe cuz I don't have schizophrenia. Although my psychologist said today that he's seen me with psychotic breaks and every time I'm in one, I claim to not be sick.

Im dealing with a really shady friend right now.

Everytime she calls or texts i stop everything im doing to help her out in her drama. But when i call shes always having to take another phone call or shes with her off/on again boyfriend. Or some stupid crap

Im sick of it

So sick of it

She had BPD. Shes just like every other person with bpd ive met its crazy

Im not saying people with bpd are horrible but what the F does it effing seem like it? Why are they like this

Are you still taking it PRN? It helps if you take it consistently....at least that's what they say over here.....

For me I think a lot of it was a mix of trauma and chemical imbalance leading to emotional deregulation. I didn't mean to create unstable situations and drama in my earlier 20s, but I did anyway. It wasn't until I started Lamictal that I became more stable and able to regulate my emotions. Heck, to the point sometimes of not having them at all. But generally with time BPD improves with age.

Ive known three people with bpd and all three are so alike its crazy. The drama and unstable relationships

I have my mammogram tomorrow afternoon. I'm nervous, hoping the abnormality is not cancerous...my mom had breast cancer and it'll suck if I have it too.

I'm sorry your meds aren't controlling the symptoms well lately.

Wishing you the best of luck.

I went to the last two smoke breaks without my glasses, and it helps a little. To not see them.

I fell asleep last night without watching Zootopia so I get to see it tonight and every night on this phone lol. Im lucky Google let me use cell data to download it because I don't know how to connect to the wifi here. My phone has been waiting for 7 months to download and install the regular updates. I could finally get that done if I can speak up and ask someone.

I'll be thinking of you.

Thank you both. <3 I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow as well.

I'm supposed to have BPD but it's not as bad as it used to be. When it flares up now, it's usually somewhat controllable.

Has that diagnosis affected your treatment or opinions of the doctors over your psychotic symptoms? It certainly has for me...they attribute all my psychotic symptoms to BPD.

I'm too busy today to be crazy hahahahaha.