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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:19 AM
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I miss my ex so much. Im not over him which is why im not committing to this new guy yet. He told me its whenever im ready. But idk when ill be fully ready. But i wont be seeing my ex prob for a year and a half or ever again. I dont want to just wait for him to get out of the group home. Why am i still so loyal to him when he doesnt care about me and doesnt even love me like i did him? Im confused.

This is really hard for me.
Maybe because he was your first bf, you did all the first time things with him. I found this article, maybe you can get something from it Why We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve | HuffPost
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:20 AM
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What kind of camera does everyone have?
I need a new camera. I had a nice Nikon but I lost it when I was psychotic . I am currently using a 14 year old camera and I'm desperate for something new. Any suggestions that won't put me in too much debt?


I have a canon t2i but i never use it. My phone camera on my iphone 7 plus is just as good.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:24 AM
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Maybe because he was your first bf, you did all the first time things with him. I found this article, maybe you can get something from it Why We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve | HuffPost


I read it just now. The first paragraph really got me. "You attract a person based on how you are feeling about yourself at any given time". That got me. When i met my ex i had low self esteem and didnt think much of myself. Id take anyone and i was desperate. I just had gotten out of psychosis a year before. I met him in group.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:24 AM
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What kind of camera does everyone have?
I need a new camera. I had a nice Nikon but I lost it when I was psychotic . I am currently using a 14 year old camera and I'm desperate for something new. Any suggestions that won't put me in too much debt?
my dad is a canon junkie
he buys literally all canon cameras

i think he has a really expensive one right now,
https://www.usa.canon.com/internet/p...os-5d-mark-iii

this is the one he has
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:27 AM
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This new guy is too nice kinda. He texts me good morning and good night texts everyday. Says he likes to cuddle. Wishes me a good day and asks me if i rested well in the morning. He says he doesnt mind taking it slow. Just a whole bunch of stuff. Im not used to this.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:33 AM
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I read it just now. The first paragraph really got me. "You attract a person based on how you are feeling about yourself at any given time". That got me. When i met my ex i had low self esteem and didnt think much of myself. Id take anyone and i was desperate. I just had gotten out of psychosis a year before. I met him in group.
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This new guy is too nice kinda. He texts me good morning and good night texts everyday. Says he likes to cuddle. Wishes me a good day and asks me if i rested well in the morning. He says he doesnt mind taking it slow. Just a whole bunch of stuff. Im not used to this.
I was like that, low self-esteem, thought I deserved to be treated badly. Thanks to my lovely but abusive father, I learnt that relationship with men is about being loved one second and being beaten the next second, that was why I was trapped in abusive relationship many times. My current bf is a very nice guy who respects me and I often want to run away from him because I'm not used to be treated that way.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:35 AM
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Thats how i feel 12am. Like i want to run away or not talk to him because hes too nice. But i know i wouldnt accept anything less so idk why i feel this way.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:36 AM
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I really dont want my gabapentin this morning im very tired and i dont feel like i need it
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:39 AM
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Thats how i feel 12am. Like i want to run away or not talk to him because hes too nice. But i know i wouldnt accept anything less so idk why i feel this way.
I wish I could say something helpful but I don't understand why am I like that either
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:40 AM
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This new guy is too nice kinda. He texts me good morning and good night texts everyday. Says he likes to cuddle. Wishes me a good day and asks me if i rested well in the morning. He says he doesnt mind taking it slow. Just a whole bunch of stuff. Im not used to this.

He really sounds like he'd be good for you.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:40 AM
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Omg torture is right!
My grandmother has macular degeneration and gets shots in her eyes. She says they don't hurt but I don't know how a needle in the eye doesn't hurt.
I don't think the main part of the eye has nerves.....
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:42 AM
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What kind of camera does everyone have?
I need a new camera. I had a nice Nikon but I lost it when I was psychotic . I am currently using a 14 year old camera and I'm desperate for something new. Any suggestions that won't put me in too much debt?
I have a sony alpha 6000---its a mirrorless interchangeable lens camera with aps sensor size---pretty nice, the lenses aren't ridiculous and its smaller than a dslr, much smaller...
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:43 AM
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He really sounds like he'd be good for you.


You think so? Idk if i deserve it. Plus idk. Idk. Hes perfect but im not sexually attracted to him, i think because i still am attracted to my ex. Everyone says my ex was ugly and obese but i have a thing for bigger guys. This guy is on the skinnier side. Plus he has a beard and mustache. I never found that attractive on guys.

I think the main thing stopping me from dating him is his looks and i feel absolutely horrible saying that.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:44 AM
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:45 AM
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You think so? Idk if i deserve it. Plus idk. Idk. Hes perfect but im not sexually attracted to him, i think because i still am attracted to my ex. Everyone says my ex was ugly and obese but i have a thing for bigger guys. This guy is on the skinnier side. Plus he has a beard and mustache. I never found that attractive on guys.

I think the main thing stopping me from dating him is his looks and i feel absolutely horrible saying that.
No one is forcing you to date him----if you're not into him you're not......
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:47 AM
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Hey I am a Magnate now and can use custom user title
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Gotta come up with something good now....hmmmmm.....the pressure
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:49 AM
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you should be banned like me, 12am

i always get people asking me how i got my account back and what i did to be banned
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:51 AM
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No one is forcing you to date him----if you're not into him you're not......


Im kinda into him but not fully. But i wasnt into my ex either for months before i fell in love with him. So i want to give it a chance. I feel like if i dont give it a chance i will never really know how i truly feel about him. But we arent officially dating yet. Just hanging out. Not sure when I should say "im ready". Not sure if i should keep it a friendship still or go further. You know?

I think the biggest thing is, is im not over my ex yet and i still think about him. I feel like thats whats preventing me mainly. Sure i dont find this guy completely attractive but thats not a deal breaker for me. I always look at personality first.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:53 AM
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Gotta come up with something good now....hmmmmm.....the pressure
Yes, I'm thinking hard about it. I saw most people put something related to their usernames but Midnight Girl sounds naughty
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:54 AM
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you should be banned like me, 12am

i always get people asking me how i got my account back and what i did to be banned
It's hard getting banned here without deliberate trying to do so.
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:56 AM
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i always get people asking me how i got my account back and what i did to be banned
Lol, cool, I'll put 'account suspended'
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:56 AM
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Yes, I'm thinking hard about it. I saw most people put something related to their usernames but Midnight Girl sounds naughty


Bahaahhahaha
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Old Sep 01, 2017, 11:57 AM
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