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Either spend it on a phone (dont really want to) or take a payment plan on the phone with 300 down

The iPhone wont be out for awhile though, right? It's just them showcasing it. Am I wrong?

Its rumored for them to showcase it on the 12th. Then make preorders the 15th. Then hit stores the 22nd.

The polypharmacy you guys have in the US is mind boggling!! And I'm always shocked when I read about multiple med changes happening at appts or IP (that does happen here, but it's not considered good practice as you won't know what's withdrawal effects and what's new side effects and what is responsible for the change in symptoms). It seems to be very common (from what I see on PC) to admit someone, make multiple med changes (stopping and starting), and then kick you out a couple of days later, way before you will have withdrawn from the old stuff and way too soon to know if the new stuff will help. It really does shock me because things are very different in the UK.

Anyway, I skipped the last roll call because I majorly cba to read over 50 pages to catch up, so I hope I didn't miss anything important...

to those who need them.

*Willow*

I took all three gabapentin last night and it made so tired. So i took one just now. So tonight only take 2.

Newtus, your taking them for anxiety right? Do they work for as needed? Or do you need to build it up in your blood level?

btw, I hear you. When I had to take Geodon in the morning I would pass the **** out at work. The company daughter would take pictures of me. It was weird. lol

Yes they do actually work as needed. They make me very sleepy tho.

It really is a crazy set up the way they change things around without consulting the prescribing doc.

My boss must have known I wasn't into it because after my morning work I didn't hear back from him! Got to hang out for a while . Now I'm getting ready to bring my son to cross country practice. Then I'll hang out until my evening work and then pick my son back up. Then I can finally feed the family.

i am thinking about getting dreadlocks,
but i dont know if i will have the time to get them done before labor day weekend, when me and my family will be traveling

I believe I'm close to becoming God and now my lifes mission is to prevent that.

I left my Olanzepine at home and I have to work today.

****...

Does anyone remember anything in their past lives then that means you're lying to me because I don't.

I'm so miserable I need to distract myself.

This is number 3. I found no. 1 the night before last night and no. 2 last night.

I feel like I'm tripping.

Why is the fundamental answer but it's still not the answer.

I'm still skeptical of all of this because I don't want fear to ruin my life. And I will not stop it from doing that.

I don't care is what I should say. Caring is the good way.

Finding out the answer should take the same amount of time.

I don't feel anything and don't know the consequences. But bad things are in my mind. And I thank everything for giving me that value in life.

I need to stop. But I can't. Everything is everything bad and good.

We are going down. Down further just give me a break from life for a minute why must I stand and hate for something that I don't even have.

I must be a genius. Because If I said that I was, fools would hate me and even though other geniuses would appreciate me, I don't want to disappoint both.

So I will use this all to make all in one and go back to becoming something anything just leave me alone everything I need you and you need me.

That's the way it will always be. Forever and ever.

I think I might have to go back to the hospital.

But isn't this weird Matrix ****?

It's quite horrifying if you don't get a break and having a break is they key to life being endless.

U have 666 posts .. lol

The day has really been crap for me, which is a shame because the weather is beautiful here. It's all my fault that today sucked. I'm having a real lot of depression still. I'm not sure when it's going to wear off.

Depression not as bad but there are messages in the music...

Of course, I'm not free to actually go anywhere, so it's not my fault.

What are they saying?

Yeah, meds can be weird sometimes. When I took lurasidone/Latuda briefly, I had awful akathisia and was agitated as ****, but 2 hours after I took it, I would be physically unable to keep my eyes open, like completely unable to stay awake, and would have an hour or two nap, and then go back to pacing again. I was pacing 30,000 steps each day!! I was in so much pain from it. Normally I'm a sloth who only does an average of 3-4,000 steps a day. But the nap thing with such strong agitation was really weird!

Yeah, it seems stupid. Sometimes that can happen here too, but never so many changes in such a short time! Your poor brains must not know whether they're coming or going with so many switches at once! :/

I get messages in music too, and TV, DVDs; anywhere really. I find them very helpful in aiding me to figure things out.

*Willow*

My dog keeps barking for no reason and it's 11.10 pm, people are trying to sleep lol

My skin has been driving me mental over the past couple of days. I desperately want to rip it all off! I was bitten on my ankle so that is really swollen and itchy, but local anaesthetic cream is barely helping. Plus my skin keeps fizzing all over, and invisible bugs keep crawling over me.

So I've been battering my phone data watching movies and TV shows to distract myself from it all. Last night I watched 'On the electric mist'; a psychological thriller with Tommy Lee Jones as a detective in 1970s Louisiana trying to solve a serial murder. It was ok. Then I watched 'The lady in the Van' with Maggie Smith as a squatting pensioner, which was hilarious, but also kinda sad.

Not sure what I'm going to watch tonight, but my data bill will be astronomical this month if my skin keeps up this **** much longer! :/

Anyone else get this and can suggest some more coping skills??

*Willow*

My dog does that too sometimes and it's really annoying! What sort of dog do you have? I have a shih tzu cross, but luckily he has a deep bark. I find yappy barks way more annoying. There were 2 chihuahuas today at a cafe we were at and they would not stop yapping. I wouldn't be able to cope with that noise at all, I'd have to give them away! :/

I hope s/he stops soon!

*Willow*

I've got a male German shepherd. He has quite a deep bark which is better than a yappy one. He gets anxious if i leave the room without him and whines until I come back in lol. Every time I go for a cigarette he follows me outside and then charges down the garden barking like mad.

The same stuff as usual. Telling me of disasters and deaths and how I'm being followed constantly. It's a big experiment that's I'm part of. Also making me doubt what is real they like to play tricks on me.

I am home from work, found some pretty cool new thin client technology today.

Basically using a Raspberry Pi as a thin client running a custom version of Linux. My company that writes my software I use on the thin clients for the hospital gave me a copy for free today. So I've got that to test.

I know what a raspberry pi is but had to look up thin client....you are super geeky and I mean that in a good way