[Bbop]

I realize that I grow more paranoid at night. I don't know if this is because my ap meds are wearing off by then or if its just par for the course. Do y'all struggle more so at night or a certain time of the day?

[Sometimes psychotic]

I have always taken my meds at night so I figure they are nice and fresh but for me turning the lights out makes a difference----I'm not symptomatic much anymore but back in the day I slept with the lights on.....

[LacunaCoiler]

When I'm in an episode the nights are the worst for me. I have trouble walking around my house without turning on every light I go into (hallway lights, room lights, bathroom lights) even if it seems like one light will do. I even got a night light to sleep with, I even sleep with it now even though I'm not symptomatic anymore. And going outside of the house at night is a huge no-no when I'm in an episode.

It takes forever afterwards to regain control of the fear of the dark. I just finished a really bad episode about a month ago and am still sleeping with a night light, still turning on some lights (not nearly as many as before), and am barely starting to go outside at night. I think the lingering fear is from the possibility that it all can happen again instead of the actual episode itself.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by LacunaCoiler

When I'm in an episode the nights are the worst for me. I have trouble walking around my house without turning on every light I go into (hallway lights, room lights, bathroom lights) even if it seems like one light will do. I even got a night light to sleep with, I even sleep with it now even though I'm not symptomatic anymore. And going outside of the house at night is a huge no-no when I'm in an episode.

It takes forever afterwards to regain control of the fear of the dark. I just finished a really bad episode about a month ago and am still sleeping with a night light, still turning on some lights (not nearly as many as before), and am barely starting to go outside at night. I think the lingering fear is from the possibility that it all can happen again instead of the actual episode itself.

I know what you mean---I thin there is almost a ptsd that comes with recovery from psychosis....

[ofthevalley]

Daytime is the worst for me because I'm alone with nothing to occupy my mind ( until recently ). I just had 2 months without any symptoms because my kids were home for summer vacation.

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I know what you mean---I thin there is almost a ptsd that comes with recovery from psychosis....

I agree with this.

I had ptsd during recovery.

[12AM]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I know what you mean---I thin there is almost a ptsd that comes with recovery from psychosis....

Originally Posted by Day Tripper

I had ptsd during recovery.

What does this mean? PTSD from what during recovery?

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by 12AM

What does this mean? PTSD from what during recovery?

Like I feel that during recovery you are so sensitive to the possibility of relapse that you're jumping at every sound whether its real or not....I don't know enough about ptsd to say whether it truly is or not......

[12AM]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Like I feel that during recovery you are so sensitive to the possibility of relapse that you're jumping at every sound whether its real or not....I don't know enough about ptsd to say whether it truly is or not......

Oh yeah I got that too, didn't know what it's called though. Thanks SP

[Findingreason]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Like I feel that during recovery you are so sensitive to the possibility of relapse that you're jumping at every sound whether its real or not....I don't know enough about ptsd to say whether it truly is or not......

I know I have this sensitivity...I often ask my wife what I heard or saw was real, and sometimes it's a 50/50 split. Also music I listen to during those times can cause flashbacks for me.

[Bbop]

Maybe an adjustment is in order with my AP med. I noticed that today I struggled with some auditory hallucinations, I thought I heard my phone ringing, thought I heard my son call my name, I heard a door close however, I was the only one home. bahumbug! At least I realize its my mind now! Hope all of y'all have a great evening!

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Bbop

Maybe an adjustment is in order with my AP med. I noticed that today I struggled with some auditory hallucinations, I thought I heard my phone ringing, thought I heard my son call my name, I heard a door close however, I was the only one home. bahumbug! At least I realize its my mind now! Hope all of y'all have a great evening!

Are you under more stress than usual?

[Bbop]

Ummmm Not really. It has been an adjustment with my boys back in school. Maybe feel a little lonely with out all the hustle and bustle?

Originally Posted by 12AM

What does this mean? PTSD from what during recovery?

At no point during my psychosis did I have PTSD. Then I was put in went to the hospital, put on drug after drug which gave me anxiety, panic attacks, anhedonia, akathisia, just all types of horrible, and while I was being treated for my panic attacks I started to show signs of PTSD. I couldn't go into a darkened theater without having a panic attack, let alone dark classrooms. My trigger happened to be everywhere too, and it was right in my face every day, there was no avoiding it, plus I had to face my professors on a daily basis. You know that story. So the PTSD wouldn't have been as bad if I didn't have a bad reaction to Wellbutrin that gave me anxiety and Panic attacks. Those symptoms amplified my PTSD to triggers I had to face.

night time is always worse for me,
thats why my pdoc has my meds scheduled to take more pills at night than in the morning

but i always take stelazine and geodon both in morning and night

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Day Tripper

At no point during my psychosis did I have PTSD. Then I was put in went to the hospital, put on drug after drug which gave me anxiety, panic attacks, anhedonia, akathisia, just all types of horrible, and while I was being treated for my panic attacks I started to show signs of PTSD. I couldn't go into a darkened theater without having a panic attack, let alone dark classrooms. My trigger happened to be everywhere too, and it was right in my face every day, there was no avoiding it, plus I had to face my professors on a daily basis. You know that story. So the PTSD wouldn't have been as bad if I didn't have a bad reaction to Wellbutrin that gave me anxiety and Panic attacks. Those symptoms amplified my PTSD to triggers I had to face.

Hugs DT.

Thanks, SP. I was very fortunate to have access to all sorts of help at the time. My only regret was that I didn't take a year or two off school to re-evaluate my new circumstances I had found myself in. PTSD can rewire the mind, but minds can fix themselves with the right help a lot of the time. I was very fortunate that the PTSD settled after a year or two. It actually got amazing better after I got out of the university. This big weight was off my shoulders of not having to face them everyday, but my health was still getting worse due to bad med reactions which sent me swirling into bipolar symptoms and then I gave up on life and lived with my mom for a year. I'm slowly bouncing back though. I've got a place, a car, a bank account again, some extra money saved up, but I still owe a lot of debt when I couldn't work much while I lived with my mother. I'm sure a lot of people here can relate to my problems. I see some struggles are much harder than mine.

[Desoxyn]

The night is when I believe that I can't control my thoughts where I think that I could possibly do something dangerous and I'm about to go to sleep now. If I can't sleep I'll take some Olanzepine.

I don't have PTSD from psychosis but it's pretty damn close.

No. 9 no. 3 no.2 blablabla it's horrifying.

And now people are speaking in my head of this one guy that talked to me saying it's horrifying.

Cuz it is..

i hate PTSD but its not from psychosis,

if anything, my "psychosis" is from my PTSD

[Shoe]

Night time used to be the worst for me also. The last episode I went through I experienced more sleep paralysis type dreams which were really pretty freaky. I very rarely have those experiences any more. I have read several books about sleep paralysis which helped to lessen my fear. My youngest daughter has started to experience sleep paralysis and she has told me that what freaks her out most about them is hearing this demonic type voice occasionally as they occur. I told her that after she breaks free of the SP to get up and walk around a little, have a drink of water or use the bathroom and just go back to sleep, that nothing is going to hurt her. I also sent her a good book about SP last year.
Someone once said that knowledge is the antidote for fear.