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Thank you. But i havent lost enough to go down a pants size yet. Even tho i lost 12 or so pounds.

Well i mean overweight. I call myself fat.

Me too, thank you! I wish they'd let us go out on the patio to smoke at any time we want. I lived next to a rehab in Chicago and the residents could sit outside smoking all day long.

This was me when my sister came to visit.

My arms are thick. My face is full. My thighs. Overall this is what i really look like even tho this was a bad picture, this is what i really look like.

Watching the original Halloween

I really wish we have therapist here. My PTSD symptoms been playing up lately and unlike delusion or hallucinations that can be helped with meds, I think I need a therapy to learn how to cope with those emotions. Anyway, I got my custom user title figured out.

Why not something more positive for your title? We had one user who had the title goddess....I liked that one.....

You look fine.
My thighs are big and my arms look fat. It's just something I have to deal with unless I start running again but I don't see that happening anytime soon.

Haha I love these movies. He's such a freakin creeper

Hahahaha I feel great this morning I want to go shopping but the stores are closed boooooo I want new gym shoes get me some Nikes ooooh maybe tomorrow. I'm so sassy this morning I love love love it hahahaha.

I don't need to eat I can live off chemicals and energy don't try anything I'll bite you

Im 5'1-5'2 tho.

I feel like im hard on myself but then i cant be. Because something is completely off and it confuses me. The time i lost 75 pounds i had gone off all my meds for 2-3 years. Took me 2 years completely to lose the 75 pounds. I wasn't exercising or eating completely healthy. So this has gotta be my meds. I dont feel like i can properly exercise because the haldol makes me feel so tired and weak everyday.

The self-image we have in our heads often doesn't match the reality. Like my self-image matches my 'normal for me' BMI or between 21-22. Whether I'm overweight when I was on quetiapine (25), or down to 18 when I was first in hospital, in my head and when I look in the mirror, I see my normal size. That's how you also get people with anorexia who feel obese, and people who are morbidly obese who think they are just a little overweight. So I wouldn't use self-image as an accurate measure of your true size/weight.

There's loads of self-help stuff online. I've found some stuff very helpful and can be transferred to any emotion/situation/symptom. I don't have PTSD, but I could recommend some stuff if you're interested??

*Willow*

Thank you willow.

I just took my BMI. It said "31.1 - Obese BMI".

Yes please Willow. I have some CBT worksheets that I downloaded online but doing it myself is not easy, but maybe your recommendations are better.

Hey guys,

College went well and I've just got back from lunch and pints with a friend. Enjoyed catching up.

Now just a lazy evening and I can sleep in tomorrow. Think I need it felt pretty tired today!

I guess i am obese.

Glad you're doing well . How is the alcohol management going?

I just weighed myself I'm at 164 now....this high protein stuff is garbage....I'm thinking salads and a smaller piece of meat like half a chicken breast not a whole...and yes it is the meds but going off the meds is worse.....rock....hard place....sigh....

I thought making a kale smoothie cuz i like kale and its healthy but i dont have any. It went bad in my fridge. Are you talking about freshly?

Problem is i dont eat most things. I dont like meat really either.

I really wish i could go off my meds. I want to sooo badly. Its not even funny how much i want to. I wish i could live without them but i cant and it kills my spirit soooo much. Everyday.

Do our meds increase our weight by itself or it's because they make us eat more?

Im not even eating that much. I eat 3 small things a day. I believe it slows my metabolism down.

That sucks, if only they are not making me tired all day I might do some exercise.

Yes a kale smoothie would be great for you....yeah I think freshly portions are too large for me......

I know med free would be awesome but I'm too afraid to try again....