Roll Call 98

I'm a terrible person I drank more alcohol this morning. Some last night now this morning. I'm sorry guys I don't even know why. Am I up or am I down? I don't know.

I know I've been seeing figures out the corner of my eye that disappear. It's disturbing. Closest I've really had to a visual hallucination in forever.

Haha Pokemon onesies

Something simple and cute like these maybe

If I'm not mistaken Umbreon, Pikachu, Charmander and uhh... Nidoran?

I think the forth one is Espeon

Im eating Burger King

Thanks, newtus. Of course the real issue is that the conservator said I can only spend $60./month (of real money). I'm probably going to spend it all on ejuice this month.

Have a good rest of the day, Blue_Bird!

That was the nastiest burger ive ever had from burger king. I went to a different one than my usual one.

I can't help but listen to this song over and over again it poses the question what if everything is an illusion inside your head and your reflection is not your own. I shouldn't listen to it because it enables my delusions but I also can't stop listening to it because I feel it's sending me messages that I'm right.

What if everything around you isn't quite as it seems...

"Things are not always what they seem. The first appearance deceives many, the intelligence of a few perceives what has been carefully hidden." Phaedrus.

I often think like this but yeah it enables my delusion too.

What if we're just smarter than everyone else? More insightful. Which is why we know things or see/hear things that others can't???

If that were true it would make sense to them once it was pointed out......

I am so sick of my mom

They have cameras in light bulbs now - is nowhere unmonitored now?

Hello everyone!

I hope your day is going good. I have had a much less stressful day at work today. I start my big project tomorrow so that is exciting and nerve wrecking all at the same time. I met with my pdoc today also, we discussed how I am still hearing voices and my sleep sucking so bad. With that she increased my Invega to 12mg and is taking me off of Lunesta and starting me on Temazepam 15mg.

I had to get the latch replaced on the door on my new car today as it broke. That cost me $500 I didn’t have so that is going to have to go on a credit card, yay! I am already drowning in debt and here is more, I just love it… Feeling really anxious about it all right now.

Sorry you have so much anxiety right now....

I dont think storage boxes will fit under my bed. Its too low to the ground. But it was a good idea.

They make some that are flatter ....how high is your bed off the ground? Target and Walmart have many.....

Thank you

See the problem is, im trying to find space in an already hoarded home. Its not extreme but its kinda bad. I have no option to try and organize the house because most of the stuff in this house isnt mine...

We have nothing on the walls in this house tho. except for in my room. By walls i mean high above. We already have furniture back to back in this place.

Im thinking maybe i should get a hanging bookshelf? Or like maybe put a book in the dining room? Ugh idk.

sorry you are so anxious.

Sitting at the orthodontist. It's freezing in here. My son should be getting his braces off soon. Then I'll get a break for a while until my daughter gets them on.
I'm bored out of my mind. Have been all day. I feel antsy.