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Oh my gosh I am EXCITED. There is projected major aurora activity tonight!!! I don't have the good camera, but will try to take photos if I can.

Awesome! Can't wait for photos

(If you can't get photos just fake us out with some professional ones )

I will try! I really wish I had the SLR and camera stand for this. My old phone could take prolonged exposure photos though, so I'm gonna use that.

The heart of the in crowd is back. I guess he was in the hospital but I don't know. This guy makes friends with anyone he feels like and he absolutely won't make friends with me. Gave him another chance, said it's good to see you, and he curtly uttered Thank you, no smile, nothing.

I'm going to beg the social worker to let me go home. I guess I could try to see her tomorrow. I know there's no good reason for these people to be nasty to me. They just are. I want to go home. They can look for programs for me no matter where I'm living, at least that's how it should be. There's no good reason for me to be here. It's making me feel suicidal.

I hope they let you go home

I am bored.

Im sick of people who hang out with me once and never see me again. Fake people.

Im actually over those kind of people. Problem is when you make new friends you dont know if the new people are like that. As for my "friends" now im over them. Screw you all.

So my sister is downtown now.....it was kind of odd last night she wouldn't make eye contact talking to me......not sure what's going on with her, she used to be the social one....

Sorry about your "friends"....

Does mental illness run in your family?

Thinking about deleting thing from my facebook. If they dont even want to hang out with me but they want an inside glimpse into my life, then they can leave. Im talking about the people who no longer hang out with me, dont bother to call or text unless they need something. Like fluck you too then. Fluck off biotch.

yes bipolar and GAD on one side and social anxiety on the other.....I got all of them yay!

That's sort of why I'm wondering if she's OK.....

Did you notice any other odd things?

Ehh I use Facebook to keep I touch with family I never really see....it gives me something even without contact, maybe your "friends " still feel connected in some way?

Not really...she was looking at me today when we ate because we were across from each other......but I wonder if she's developing social anxiety or something....

Theres a lot of people that have done that to me. Quite a few i mean.

But honestly that same girl who said that crap on facebook the other day and i tried to be on her side and said i dont get her situation, i want to delete her. Along with a few other people i dont like. Just a few but i would like to delete them or something.

Hopefully you can figure it out. Maybe ask her basic questions like "how have you been feeling lately?"

Yeah most people have like 590 friends they might not even notice.....I only have like 50....

I have 180 as of right now.

A lot of the people im talking about are from HS

Oh I have a few from high school after the 20 year reunion but they live too far away to see.....

So like, can things that excite you make you hypomanic? Cause I am liking jumping around inside happy that a good aurora show could be happening. It's like this burst where I went from depressed to hyper and happy in no time. This is not the first time this has happened.

I live no where near this hurricane but it's freaking me out.....one of my friends was going to med school in the Caribbean but she was home visiting family and is safe...
The airport was destroyed however....I'm not sure how she'll be able to finish med school. My aunt just bought a house in the northern part of Florida....hopefully it will not make it that far inland. Idk but after seeing Houston and then this one is stronger it's like yikes....

I've never had it happen but maybe since you're possibly bpd your mood cycles are Different?

It's entirely possible. My moods can shift on a second's notice. It's nowhere near as bad as it used to be. Lamictal helped me a LOT.

The bf is having Mexican for dinner....I'm jealous.....I just have one of my freshly meals