Roll Call 99

If it's something you really want to do then it's worth it.

Anyone ever been to Everett Wa? My friend mentioned it as a place to live and now I'm considering it....

Like the state? I have family that lives in washington. Yakima, wa. In the mountains east of Seattle.

I just dont know if ill get weird looks from people when i live in texas and got a degree from an arizona school. They will obviously realize it was an online school just seeing that.

My husband stayed in Everett for a couple weeks. I think he liked it. I'll ask him when he gets home.

So what? It's still a degree.

I'm jealous. I wish I could pick up and move.

Newtus were you considering Pheonix University? I was considering them too. I am not sure yet, I have to see what my other options for my community college are first.

I just talked to my dad. He said the same thing. Thats the whole reason i went to a nearby university tho. Well kinda. Because it was in-state. But also because my dream is to find an original theory (or close to it) in philosophy or ANYTHING and get it published. I feel like i had more of a chance to do that at an in-person uni. I actually met with the top philosophy professors at the in state uni and we clicked well. Or so i thought.

It just kills me that i let my dream slip through my fingers that easily.

At my program. Going walking for awhile after it.

I have been doing reps with weights everyday to tone up my arms. Also
yoga everyday.

I feel very good. Getting back into violin and art. I can almost play the whole Harry Potter theme song on my violin.

Reading a book called 13 Reasons Why

Reading the books and materials for my RCIA class as well

No. Arizona State University. Not sure about pheonix but ASU is accredited and it offers a full philosophy bachelors degree online. I think even a MA and PhD in philosophy online as well. ASU offers like hundreds of degrees online. As well as its a campus uni with a mascot and the works.

Im seriously considering it.

My boss hasn't called yet. Maybe he forgot about me .

Awesome!

I could live with the snow but not -40... eek

I dont feel like i have to put this in brackets cuz im better now... but...



I felt sui last night because of everything im talking about now. I was really down about school. My gpa is low because i havent been doing the classes at all. I havent been doing the classes because THIS IS NOT the major i want to walk away with. I want that philosophy degree. Philosophy is my passion and its my life's meaning. I went off of the new guy yesterday because hes like "dont you have any other passions?". That PISSEd me off so much. Yea of course i do but philosophy is what gives MY life meaning. This dude didnt even goto college. He barely got his hs diploma. He doesnt value school at all and thats another thing i dont like about him. I have the BIGGEST respect for anyone who respects college or is in it or has a degree. It shows not only work ethic, but morals towards education and more.

Scratch that. They remembered me.

Yes but this would be on the coast.....

I've been here 25 years...so tired of it, but the people I love are here so it might not be for a couple years I just need an exit plan.....

Oops 15 years typo....

Gotcha. Both of my parents are deceased so the only one that would be holding me here is my grandmother. My husband has his parents though so moving is out of the question.

Sorry im talking about this so much. But im on my last leg with school. Ive already run out of most of the choices as far as getting the major i want.

Ive been to 3 community colleges in the past 5 years. Been to my dream uni in person and had to drop out because the commute. I still support that school tho. I let that school slip through my hands too easily. But with the meds im on its just not possible. I was waking up at 6am to do an hour and a half commute to school. Going there for 3 hours and then another hour and a half commute back home. Taking the bus and driving On a very dangerous road with lots of 18 wheelers speeding. There was accidents everyday. Plus im so tired with my meds. Some days i couldnt keep my eyes open. So it just wasnt possible. And my parents and my financial aid wouldnt pay for living in that town.

So im literally between a rock and a hard place. My gpa is slipping severely. Because i failed the last class my gpa stands at a 2.0.

I got a certificate from my therapist for having good/better attendance at the program

I've been in this city for almost 30 years now... I did have a thought about moving but I think I was hypomanic then.

For now it suits me fine, I'm well settled here.

I can appreciate why you might want to move though!

Going to try to get back into routine. Eating balanced meals at appropriate times and cutting out as much junk food as possible. I've been eating so badly lately I probably gained some weight back. I've lost so much already healthily I don't want to start going backwards.

Probably the depression has caused me to slip back this past while. I need to do better while I feel better.

Im literally crying right now, just about my life. Im not even focused on relationships right now. Idc about relationships. I just want to better myself. I want a better life for myself. I dont want to be stuck in the same place for ever and it would kill me if i not only didnt have a degree but a degree in something i dont even care about. I want my life to reflect to my passions. In any way it can.

Is it wrong for me to think that im smart to get recognition or to change the world???

I dont think im manic right now, this has been a thought of mind for the past couple of years. I dont believe this is psychosis. I truly believe i can do something in this world that will shift peoples mind. It just kills me BECAUSE im not sure how to get my ideas out there. I have so many. I want a degree, 1, because i feel like i could be trained and schooled enough to develop those ideas, and 2, be in a environment like a university where i can get my ideas published.

This is my dream

Nm. I know it sounds crazy. But im just passionate when i talk about it.