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newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 08:49 AM

I just took my haldol. Because i didnt take it last night.

The meds cloud my mind. I know i will continue to think like this later but i will be very lethargic later.

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 08:49 AM

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Originally Posted by sparks373

Heya, I'm new here..

Welcome, Sparks!!!!!

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 08:49 AM

Anyway, going to see my pss later.

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 09:03 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I've been here 25 years...so tired of it, but the people I love are here so it might not be for a couple years I just need an exit plan.....

Oops 15 years typo....

I didn't know you were hoping to move. Good luck with it, sp. I've moved so many times in my life. The next time might be forever.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 09:03 AM

I'm calling tax offices right now. Approximate wait time: 9 minutes. Okay I'm getting paid for it!

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 09:07 AM

I apologize for rambling this morning

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 09:10 AM

I got up in time to drink my coffee and juice and go out for the vape break. Someone came by with a dog for us to pet. Huge dog, magnificent creature. But again, this dog didn't want me to pet him. None of the dogs they bring around ever want to be near me. Why is that? I'm a cat person anyway.

12AM · 09:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

I've been in this city for almost 30 years now... I did have a thought about moving but I think I was hypomanic then.

For now it suits me fine, I'm well settled here.

I can appreciate why you might want to move though!

I've been in my city for almost 30 years too. I did travel to another cities and countries but never more than two weeks. I swear this place smells like PTSD for me, given a chance to move I wouldn't think twice.

I only quote you because the 30 years part, glad you are well styled there

Desoxyn · Sep 11, 2017, 09:19 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I dont feel like i have to put this in brackets cuz im better now... but...

I felt sui last night because of everything im talking about now. I was really down about school. My gpa is low because i havent been doing the classes at all. I havent been doing the classes because THIS IS NOT the major i want to walk away with. I want that philosophy degree. Philosophy is my passion and its my life's meaning. I went off of the new guy yesterday because hes like "dont you have any other passions?". That PISSEd me off so much. Yea of course i do but philosophy is what gives MY life meaning. This dude didnt even goto college. He barely got his hs diploma. He doesnt value school at all and thats another thing i dont like about him. I have the BIGGEST respect for anyone who respects college or is in it or has a degree. It shows not only work ethic, but morals towards education and more.

Well said Newtus

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 09:24 AM

Im so upset right now. Im trying to talk to my mom and my pss. And this guy and my friend.

I feel like no one understands or supports my dream. What an awful feeling. Its just like the time a few weeks ago i showed my pss my philosophy paper and she saw no brilliance in it. I was devastatingly heartbroken. Not like it was a world renowned paper but it was the best of my ability in that stage of learning i was in at the time.

The only person that truly understands and supports me is my dad. Hes my only hope.

12AM · Sep 11, 2017, 09:26 AM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

I've been in my city for almost 30 years too. I did travel to another cities and countries but never more than two weeks. I swear this place smells like PTSD for me, given a chance to move I wouldn't think twice.

I only quote you because the 30 years part, glad you are well styled there

Settled, not styled, but styled is okay too.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 11, 2017, 09:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I didn't know you were hoping to move. Good luck with it, sp. I've moved so many times in my life. The next time might be forever.

It will probably be in a few years but I need the hope now...Chicago is slowly killing me.....

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 09:37 AM

Thanks for ignoring me

junkDNA · Sep 11, 2017, 09:50 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

So what? It's still a degree.

A lot of those online only universities are seen as a joke

junkDNA · Sep 11, 2017, 09:53 AM

Oh didn't know you were talking about ASU

justmeandmyhead · Sep 11, 2017, 09:54 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Thanks for ignoring me

Sorry you're struggling newtus, sounds like you've got a lot on your mind atm. I can understand feeling disappointed with yourself about uni. I've been twice and not completed a degree. Try to remember you're worth isn't measured by if you've been to uni. I learned that the hard way

junkDNA · Sep 11, 2017, 09:54 AM

They're closing schools here for the approaching hurricane

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 11, 2017, 09:54 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Im so upset right now. Im trying to talk to my mom and my pss. And this guy and my friend.

I feel like no one understands or supports my dream. What an awful feeling. Its just like the time a few weeks ago i showed my pss my philosophy paper and she saw no brilliance in it. I was devastatingly heartbroken. Not like it was a world renowned paper but it was the best of my ability in that stage of learning i was in at the time.

The only person that truly understands and supports me is my dad. Hes my only hope.

Not everyone will support your dream, my dad thought I should be an engineer....you have to do what makes you happy because you're the one living your life not them.....

justmeandmyhead · Sep 11, 2017, 09:55 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I got up in time to drink my coffee and juice and go out for the vape break. Someone came by with a dog for us to pet. Huge dog, magnificent creature. But again, this dog didn't want me to pet him. None of the dogs they bring around ever want to be near me. Why is that? I'm a cat person anyway.

Are you scared of dogs at all? Sometimes I think they can sense if you're nervous.

justmeandmyhead · Sep 11, 2017, 09:58 AM

Another busy day. Packing and buying a fridge etc. Taken the kitchen floor up to be redone on weds.
Someone at work told me you can get a buzz off procyclidine, that they have a street value. I took a couple just to see if it does anything. I feel calmer I guess but no real high. Don't worry I won't do it again, just scientific curiosity haha

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 10:03 AM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

Oh didn't know you were talking about ASU

Ive researched this school and other schools up and down for months. Asu seems like one of the last options for me. I wouldnt consider going there if it was just an online only school. Because i know they are seen as a joke. But the way these side effects affect me i am largely unable to make a 6 hour commute to/from the other uni. Its just not possible unless i get off my meds for years.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 10:14 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Im so upset right now. Im trying to talk to my mom and my pss. And this guy and my friend.

I feel like no one understands or supports my dream. What an awful feeling. Its just like the time a few weeks ago i showed my pss my philosophy paper and she saw no brilliance in it. I was devastatingly heartbroken. Not like it was a world renowned paper but it was the best of my ability in that stage of learning i was in at the time.

The only person that truly understands and supports me is my dad. Hes my only hope.

I'm sorry you aren't feeling understood. I'm glad you have your fathers support.
Not everyone understands philosophy so I would take you PSS with a grain of salt.

hope you get this all figured out.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 10:37 AM

I worried about being taken seriously going to asu

Findingreason · Sep 11, 2017, 10:49 AM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

Jealous. Usually we get a couple feet of snow in the winter and -40 I don't like it lol.

When you don't need to know whether that temp is in Fahrenheit or Celsius, both ways you're going oh fluck no

Findingreason · Sep 11, 2017, 11:00 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

It will probably be in a few years but I need the hope now...Chicago is slowly killing me.....

I know the feeling...Where I grew up I spent like 20 years of my life and it took several more years for me to even be able to visit the place again without flashbacks. At least I can now. I'll be visiting there again this holiday season.

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