Roll Call 105

You're out of meds? I thought you just got them like 2 weeks ago?

No. I got them a month ago. Its already the end of october.

The only reason i have a few more haldol left is because some nights i didnt take the haldol.

Oh. Will they give you the refills or do you have to go there tomorrow?

I flucked up the bike machine somehow and couldn't get it to work for my arms, so I'm kind of bummed out that I couldn't do that today. I don't know what went wrong.

They gave me refills this time

I was feeling pretty good for a while
until someone called my mom and threatened her life and told her


I am just so angry that people would do that especially since


We are going to call the police and we are also going to call the company from which he called from and sue them possibly, because threats of violence are NEVER okay

That's terrible!

yeah, and all because we cancelled his services with the company :/
It was really unwarranted and sucks to be him right now, but since he threatened my mom he's going to get hit with a huge fine because she is definitely going to sue

Next time your father sees him he's going to tell him, "Anything you do to her, I'm going to do to you/" And there will be a long awkward pause until you enter the room.

Bf also calls my dad by his first time and my dad has been telling me “im not his buddy. I’m MR to him!”

Hahaha i love dad humor. Thanks for the laugh.

Well bf didnt come over. He said he didnt want to get sick. So i have no meds tonight. And if im not feeling well tomorrow im not going anywhere.

I kinda thought he was gonna bring me like flowers cuz i was sick. Or SOMETHING.

This is gonna be a long effing weekend

I have no energy to care about typing, reading or watching videos or anything.

I'm going to ask my mom if she can teach me driving standard today.

I would be so happy if I could get my drivers license. So happy.

Thank goodness it's almost Friday. This has been a long week. I can't wait to sleep in. Anyone have any plans for the weekend?

My bf is like that too...I need to deep clean before he comes over......

Not a lot. Money was delayed till Monday, so I'm living on pasta and ramen for this weekend. working on getting things done on my checklist.

Probably going to the boo at the zoo....lots of the kids dress up it's pretty cute......

I'm kind of like that, I keep my distance from my wife and partner if they're sick, but I will do everything I can to help them feel better (get meds, vitamins, Emergen-C, tissues, etc). If I'm exposed and already kissed or something realizing they're sick, then I don't care cause if I'm gonna get sick I'm gonna get sick.

It was different when we lived together then he was all about helping and once even after he got me groceries but now that I have instacart it's not necessary for him to drive out and hour and back and hour to drop them outside my door. He just lives so far it's a pain...

Tonight is the night

I'm deteriorating away in this basement.

I will do brain activities and games to learn more or I will be a vegetable I swear.

The brain has neuroplasticity and I must gain better long term memory.

It gets worse over time the more I don't exercise my brain.

A professor told me "if you want your children to be smart--games, games, games!" I'd love to play the new Wolfenstein sequel but I'd need a better laptop probably. I hear it's fantastic. Do you have a console or a PC? Another thing that's great for memory is reading a book, but i even find that more and more difficult motivationally as time goes on...

I have an xbox one but I'd love to get a good PC to play games on. My brother does that. He went to university to become a game designer but he changed his mind because he wasn't as good at math as he was with creative writing. I'm the opposite.

I always ask him about games and stuff he's always up to date on it.

He's thinking of getting me a VR headset.

I prefer there to be no proof of a God. Whether there is or not, everything showing the hidden power behind it is more magnificent if there is always a question to everything. It gives life a meaning because the opposite of that is no meaning.

It's better to not know. The world is the way it is because of this.

Some people may also believe too. It's just how things are. We're all different.

If something bad were to be deleted like what we see on the news, nothing would exist. Everything has to exist. And what we share in common (Whether or not I'm the only person that is real and everyone else isn't), is the proof of existence.

But sometimes I get really down because of it. I could list a bunch of bad things in a trigger but we all know what these bad things are.

Even though a mystery doesn't want to keep me going, the fact that the mystery exists does.