Roll Call 112

Guys. I just weighed myself and I’m at 125! I am shocked. I never thought I’d get down to my pre zyprexa weight never mind below. I’ll just tell you because my husband won’t like it lol.

Do you need to get a tune up after winter? My bicycle apparently needs a $200 tune up in spring every year.

Funny thing is, i put that on fb but i never did it. I deleted only one person.

But probably 8 people deleted me. I know after i put that up i had a few people delete me. Before i put it up i had a few people delete me as well.

This whole thing with this girl just now has me wondering. You never know, you know? Especially after what i said to the bf last night. I honestly feel like its me. I think im judgemental and disrespectful to people PLUS too needy. Im only needy tho because i dont have many friends. Like 1 in real life. But i only ever hang out with the bf and my dad...like...?...obviously theres something wrong with me...

I do. I really really do. I hang so much of my self worth if not all of it on people because i have no one to gauge who i am as a person with. I only ever talk to my parents and just met the boyfriend 4 months ago. I dont have friends to bounce things off with so i have to look at how people treat me as my self worth. and things like facebook.

Omg my weight is worse than ever. Just horrible. But I'm happy for you, valley.

Do you need to get a tune up after winter? My bicycle apparently needs a $200 tune up in spring every year.

Well you need an oil change every now and then but there's nothing special about winter.

That bike tune up sounds like a scam......

So I just got off the phone with the girl my sister ****ed up and the man involved is going to plead out. That’s good because the girl won’t have to testify but he’s getting off with a slap on the wrist. He won’t even have to register as a sex offender. So much for a justice system.

Im extremely caught up in this horoscope shyt.

Apparently aries man and virgo women are reallll bad together. With virgos nagging and perfectionism and aries aggression

My son got my car dug out and cleaned off. I can’t believe he was able to get in. He said it wasn’t bad at all.

Went to see Molly’s Game at the cinema. Was a really good film. Enjoyed it so much I got the book it’s based on for my kindle when I got home. Will read it now.

I'm an aries, I don't think I'm that aggressive. Honestly I don't know about all this horoscope stuff but I heard your moon sign is actually more important...I think I'm a leo in moon sign.

Just to chime in, as an astrologer, there's a ton more to astrology than sun and moon signs. The whole chart gets examined first off, before doing synastry and chart comparisons. I don't mean to sound like.a know it all, sorry.

Thanks Angelique!

So who do i have to talk to about my bf’s sign?

No seriously tho, a psychic???

Yesterday i showed bf a pic of my nephew playing with baby dolls. It turned into a debate because he said hes not gonna let his little boy (if he had one with me) play with barbies and girls toys because he doesnt want his boy to turn out gay because he would be upset. I got upset and started challenging him because i dont think a toddler or very young boy playing with barbies is gonna turn them gay. He doesnt think gay people are born gay. (I KINDA hold that belief too but then i kinda dont. Im on the fence on that because i dont understand it too well. All i know is i know god wouldnt approve).

Anyway, he talked about spanking our kids too. So after the heated discussion i said “so youre gonna beat our kids senseless and make sure they arent gay? What else are you gonna do?”. He took that as me saying he was gonna be a bad father. He said “i dont want to talk about this anymore. I dont like what you are insinuating and im starting to get angry”. And he got firm with me when he said that and i got really scared. I dont like when men (not even my dad) get firm with me or yell or anything. Im real scared of men even strangers passing me by. So i went to another room in my house. My room. And laid down. I got really scared. I got so scared it triggered something in me and i started to get anxious and paranoid. I started having an episode and started started tearing things off my wall. I was about to kick my wall in from anxiety.

An hour later i texted him from my room and asked him to bring me my meds. He did and i took them. But because they dont work immediately i kept having an episode and saying weird paranoid schizophrenic shyt about having demons in my body and i started praying on a rosary. I started saying sui stuff like “i dont belong in this world”. He was sitting at the edge of my bed the whole time telling me i was wrong and that people care about me. Then i kept saying stuff about our relationship and if hes serious about me and all this stuff about myself. Don’t remember exactly. Probably dont remember because i was having an episode. And he started crying real bad and said “i dont like hearing you say stuff like that about suicide and second-guessing my love for you. I dont want people to fear me. I wont get angry like that again. I was just being firm with you because the way you said all that stuff to me about beating our kids senseless. You could have worded it differently. My dad was beaten as a kid and homeless, and he was drunk when i was growing up and i told myself i wasnt ever going to be like how he was treated or how he treated me. I told myself since i was a boy i was gonna be a good father. Im sorry. I wont get angry with you again”. He thought i was breaking up with him again i think. Idk why. Idk why he always thinks im trying to break up with him???

He didnt yell at me or anything exactly but he got firm with me. But i also blame myself for how i talked to him. I dont respect people in general. But at the same time those things he was talking about (not the spanking. But not letting his son play with dolls because he will turn gay and hed be upset) made me kinda worried.

This is the first time something this major has happened between us. I strongly suspect more will happen since i can get kinda disrespectful with people especially when i dont agree with them.

Thoughts?

No, don't pay insane money for a very limited reading. A good private astrologer will probably charge close to $100 for an in depth reading lasting an hour, more for synastry. Or more, actually. But not on a psychic line! Those are much too expensive. And the person you talk to can only spend a few minutes with an approximation of your chart. There might be some decent astrologers working in Dallas you could try, but I don't know of anyone by name or reputation.