Roll Call 112

I suck at running on the treadmill. But I’ve gotten better. I could only run for a minute at a time before but I’m able to run for four minutes at a time now.

I've been sneaking puffs of the cigar but I'm too afraid for it to help much. My stomach is upset and I'm depressed. There's nothing to do here. I do have a coloring book and markers, and word puzzle books but I just zone out and don't use them. I guess I can play with them in the lounge though. There's a lot of table space there.

I'm not feeling very optimistic at all. No smoke breaks, and on Wednesday I have to be up really early for my eye appointment. At least it should finish early.

I could run or jog 3km (1.86411 miles - Damn imperial system..) without stopping and could probably run back for 6km but I stopped running.

Now I'm afraid to run because of my heart. I have to wait longer for it to go back to normal.

Had a coffee this morning and it's not too bad.

Happy New Year all!

Drew this for Christmas, forgot to post it. His name is Charlie the elf

Good for you. You can do it.
When I first started running I used the interval workout setting. It alternated running and brisk walking so you always know there’s a break coming. By the end I was running 4-5 miles a day 5 days a week. Now I’d be back to the interval setting.

sorry you are feeling depressed and aren’t optimistic. That’s no way to ring in the new year.

Damn. Fell asleep for 2 hours after i masturbated.

They should let us stand around the doorway and smoke or something. I guess that's a bad idea. :/

I know. I'm not sure if I've ever had a worse new year's. At least all the ones before this I was free. It's no good locked up.

Haha i see you cog!

Hahahahaha. I have no shame.

This day is going by fast cuz i slept 2 hours.

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I heard they were good. I follow them on Instagram.

I took my meds.

Today was ok. I slept for 2 hours but was depressed a bit about the bf. Too much to explain. But he doesnt really talk about the future with me and him. He says hes just living in the now in his life right now. Which is a red flag and turn off. Amongst other things. Wasnt wanting to go into 2018 like this...

I only had to be home alone today. I was busy all last week and yesterday with my dad and the bf and my sis and her husband. My sis and nephew is staying another week but her husband flew back today cuz he has to goto work.

My dad will be home next two days. And for two weeks next week. So today wasnt too bad to be alone.

Yes, plume room makes good juice. I had a lemon chiffon pie flavor from them and it was great!

@ofthevalley and angelique

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I’m ready for bed. Hopefully by 11. I slept the last 2 nights without ambien. I only woke up last night because I was cold.
Spent our last night off by eating and watching stranger things.

Where has SP been?

I spend my days typing into google "* off you *" "Leave me the * alone"

How depressing

I want to believe in infinity. That anything is possible.

Infinite numbers between 0 and 1

But there's always a 1/2

It's like it depends on what you believe.

I know I feel bloody miserable

Im so sorry my friend

I feel like I'm sort of losing my mind. I feel like my personality changes hourly. I don't really know what is real but I seem to be more in control of it on the borderline of terrifying to where I'm near wanting to take an olanzepine but I don't need it.