Roll Call 112

sorry to hear that.

Sorry you had a bad day. Do you want to talk about it? ((((( Gentle hugs )))))

Don’t feel like talking about it A hug is more than enough, thank you Angelique and valley

I finally took my Christmas tree down. My living room is back. It seems so empty without it.

This is day number one of work without a dedicated music player. I need to get a larger memory card for my phone and hard drive and start bit tormenting i suppose. No other option for a Windows phone. Too bad it didn't get popular, the operating system is so smooth and intuitive. The good news is that html5 and progressive web apps plus 5g will make another Windows Phone possible, but with full Windows. And apple is taking a page from Microsoft as it unifies their software.

Ugh. My boss called. I think I’ll wait until tomorrow to talk to him. I love making my own hours.

Anyone ever just lay there in bed and say to themselves, Shut. The. Hell. Up.

But it never works.

Thoughts not voices.

Valley, what do you do for work? Can you tell your boss to text you from now on? I find it much more convenient.

I remember looking across the lake in my apartment looking at the ducks living in the moment. I felt so deeply in my depression that i wished i was just a duck lol

All the time, I hate myself even without the illness.

I have the same story except with a bird on my window lol

I’m an administrative assistant. I kind of have to talk to him. I have asked him to text me when it’s just a question but he insists on talking.

I remember recently I typed into google "I want to be a plant"

Damn I fell asleep for 10 minutes then my son came home I’m tired now. I think I’m still adjusting to getting back up at 6.

Good evening/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

Loial and 12AM, I hope you both feel better soon.

I'm okay. I slept from like 1am to 11am and again from 4pm to 9pm. I think it was taking the extra olanzapine last night that made me all sorts of tired. Now just waiting for the computer room to come available (guest is sleeping in there currently) so I can use my desktop machine.

Yes I'm adjusting to getting up at 7, today is my first day back and I wasn't in until 9:30, but I was still the first one in. With the cold peoples cars aren't starting.

Been worried about you

I’ve been practicing my make up skill, I think I’m better at doing it now. Who wants a make over? But the result is not guaranteed

Oh sorry was busy for new years---the bf got into a fight with his mom so we spent a lot of time talking about it.

I'll take one

I cried all morning today. Plus i didnt sleep last night.

What's going on?

All day. Not always in bed tho

BACKSTORY: i told the bf last night that i was depressed and wanted to die and he said all this after i said i just want someone to call mine forever since everyone on my friends list is either married or married with kids and no one is no longer able to hang out anymore. Told him my biggest dilemma is making and maintaining friendships after all my friends have kids or boyfriends/husbands now. And then he said all this.

Only reason i cried this morning is because i really wanted to see him today or yesterday. And he said “you did this yesterday “. I said “did what...?”. And he said i was guilt tripping him into coming over. I never have cried so fast. We worked it out but he told me he was sorry and is under stress too. But im still disappointed because he said hes not making money cuz his job is always shut down for this season. But hes going out with his buddies today? I told him i nag him about college and getting that record cleared because i worry about how much of this kind of going out and having fun is gonna be a continuous thing in the future if hes not actively working on employment for the winter. I told him he has a lot of growing up to do.

I'm at work feeling nauseated. I hope we don't stay too late tonight. I have a dentist appt tomorrow morning