Roll Call 112

When I worked at Walmart I was sobbing at my register one night. This guy customer was like trying to console me. It was rly awkward

Morning,

Today is my last day at my parents house. I’m going home tomorrow. Been nice having a break away but I’m looking forward to going home.

Already been out today. Picked up some new e-juice that I’ll be trying when I get home. Blueberry Ice.

Hope everyone is ok!

I’m starting to ponder coming off my AP again. Even on a low dose I know it makes me sleep longer and affects motivation too. I mean, I’m doing pretty well regardless but I know having that extra drive would be helpful.

I suppose the question comes down to symptoms. I’m hearing little of my voices and have had no paranoia for a long time now. I did have a blip where my voices were worse but other than that it’s been plain sailing. If things remained similar to now off meds then I’d definetly do it. I’m sure I could cope with a slight increase in symptoms too.

On the other hand, perhaps I’m doing well because of the medication.

I really don’t want to be on APs long term even at a low dose though. Hmm.

Another day, same routine

Get up
Make coffee
Play animal crossing
Shower
Put work clothes on
Do make up
Head to work.

There's a comfort to it but also an annoyance

morning all

Ummm... Yes.

I just skip the parts i can’t do.....like downward dog 🐶

Morning

Got some sleep

Debating on the coffee tho

She says that because she doesn’t know what it looks like to have to have dinner on the table at a set time each night while raising kids and doing whatever else the man needs while he just sits around after work. Giving up your social life aside from the hubs because you can’t afford a baby sitter or maybe even a second car on one income. I think what she really wants is to be Independently wealthy...which reminds me I need to get a powerball ticket haha.

This is always such a tough question......I feel like my APs are holding me back too but I’m absolutely terrified of even the slightest symptoms now. Current pdoc isn’t really amenable to any sort of med change so I’m staying on for now. I doubt I’ll ever be fully off again but I’d really like to try 5mg.

Good morning. Hope everyone is having a good day. So far so good here. Slept poorly but I’ll survive. I don’t know what the problem was. I woke up at 6 and couldn’t get back to sleep.
Nothing going on today. Just hanging out with the family. It’s too cold and icy to go out. I should go to the bank but I’m too much of a wuss.
What’s everyone up to today?

It’s not so bad .
I am glad we have 2 cars.

I was just talking about my mom, it really depends on the husband a lot.....

It really does. My husband is pretty mellow. I never have dinner cooked when he gets home. Sometimes I make cereal for dinner. My house gets messy and my kids run out of control at times. He takes it all in stride and helps out where he can. He even does his own laundry.
I love being a stay at home mom. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

My pdoc is pretty open to what I want. I’m sure if I wanted to try going off he’d be ok with it.

I think what is probably true for both of us in regards of playing about with meds is it should only be done when our situations are stable.

Maybe I should wait until I’ve been in a job for a while or whatever before trying coming off. Added stressors wouldn’t be wise.

I’m not sure really. Maybe I will try harder to get into better routines and exercising on meds. If that fails then I’ll know I need to be off meds to manage that.

I’m going to talk to my doc about dropping down on my meds. I’ve been stable a long time and I take a lot of meds. I think she’ll be agreeable. I haven’t even been taking my Ativan.

So I’m doing well not smoking weed. I haven’t bought any since the first of the year. I miss it more than I miss smoking cigarettes. I should be grateful for not having to go out in the cold to smoke. My wallet will be happy.

I’m glad things are going well! Hopefully dropping down works ok for you too when you are ready.

Yeah you’re right I have a lot of big changes coming up.....

That’s awesome! Good luck!🍀

I slept last night, thank God my roommate decided to stop torturing me, or maybe she actually fell asleep last night. Whatever it is, I'm glad to go back to my sleep, I sleep really well without that voice I used to have. Most nights really well.

I wish I could decrease my meds to lose weight, or switch to one without so much weight gain, but I'm really afraid to play around with that because it's working, and what if it stops working? That would be a nightmare.

The regular leader in the morning coffee hour isn't here on weekends and the person who takes over was very obvious about NOT giving me any funny money. So she's a ***** like that other resident was. When the regular person is here she gives me up to three bucks for being there and participating. I'd really love to know why the residents don't give me money when they're handing it out to all the other residents.

I remembered to ask for a nicotine patch. Hopefully it will make a dent in my cravings.

I’m glad you got some sleep and your roommate left you alone.
What meds are you taking? Maybe there is an alternative that will help you lose some weight.
I’m sorry you didn’t get any funny money. That was a ****** thing to do.

Thanks Valley. I'm still not sure what (everything) I'm taking but I'm pretty sure it's risperidone. Just don't know how much. And 80mg of Prozac. And a bunch of other stuff that I don't know. It seems that the more weight neutral the med, the less effective it might be? That was true of the Abilify. The Zyprexa worked great, but I put on 60 pounds in 5 months. But Zyprexa is one of the most reliable AP's.

Apparently the most weight neutral meds are Geodon and Latuda....Abilify is not quite as good plus it’s a partial agonist at D2 rather than an antagonist like every other AP.