Roll Call 114

I never heard of that, what is it?

It’s the idea that you can be happy at any size. It’s kind of about not marginalising people because they are fat and learning to have a good relationship with food and your body. I had an eating disorder and it’s massively helped me to be more comfortable with my body and have a better relationship with food

Do you find it helpful?

Omg my puppy just fell onto a table and spilled and entire pint of rum and coke everywhere.
Had to give him a bath!
What a mess haha

Kinda. I mean, I understand its about not marginalizing people who are overweight but at the same time i know in my case im overweight because im not healthy. I dont eat completely right and i dont exercise. If i did those things and was still overweight id find it more helpful.

Just my opinion. I think it’s helpful for many people tho.

That’s fair enough, I guess you have to be happy with your health and how it makes you feel. You can want to lose weight and still be body positive. I think part of it is not buying into diet culture too.
You do you, I firmly believe in that

So the pdoc here (a np) came to visit just before lunch. She says I'm doing really well. She acted like maybe she thought I was crazy for wanting to observe some astrological rules for my cataracts surgery date. But after I said I'm an astrologer the second time she heard me. She thought maybe I was under some kind of weird thrall. Anyway whatever I said was ok with her. She got a computer chart analysis twice so she doesn't think I'm psychotic about it.

I did not have the nerve to ask for a Vistaril prn. And I didn't dare bring up my paranoia. She said I wasn't communicative when I first got here? I remember having long talks with everyone.

I did sleep until past 11am everyday for the first 2 months I guess. Anyway she says I'm doing a lot better now.

I agree. I guess i thought you couldnt want to lose weight and be part of that community.

Good to hear she thinks you’re doing better Angelique do you agree that you’re doing better?

What I understand of it is that wanting to lose weight and be healthier is fine, it’s how you go about it. Eat things you want to because it feels good to eat healthy, and do exercise because you enjoy how the movement feels on your body rather than a punishment that’s just my take on it

I guess so. At least I don't sleep until past 11 anymore. I feel like aside from that, I was more outgoing when I first got here. Oh well. A good report always helps.

Ugh im tired. I need a nap but i cant fall asleep in the middle of the day.

Like a rainbow in the dark...

My cat hates me right now.. I seek in kisses and belly rubs before he can bite me.

Slept many hours. Drinking a coffee.

My mom is going to Calgary again. If I knew earlier I would go with her so she can drop me off at my friends place.

Here is isolation. I will go to the bar later where there is no one there and sit alone.

Finally got an email from linkedin saying they made a mistake by restricting my account.

Had to upload my drivers license

It's chilly in here tonight. I'm going to pull my coat over me. I don't think I'm going to go vape at 7. I just feel cold and forlorn.

I wonder if i should have more confidence in myself to work...

Received some bad news... My dad and stepmom want to adopt a 3 year old. They are so not good parents.

You have to go through a lot to adopt. Maybe they won’t be approved.

Yessss

Time to take my meds. Then off to bed in a couple of hours. And then seeing the bf tomorrow!!! Gonna give him the iPhone ahead of time.

Took my meds

Excited to sleep and for tomorrow.

They are adopting it from their friend who they sale their drugs to. Apparently her mother has drug and mental issues and is a stripper or whatever and isnt fit. Dad cant handle her.

Oh man. That sounds like a recipe for disaster.

A 3 year old CHILD?