Roll Call #115

Yes it’s an excellent service and the battery is guaranteed for replacement for 3 years anywhere In the country. Then 3 years prorated.

Thanks SP! I'll tell her about that idea so she can put that in her tool box

Hey Tweaky I saw your deleted post. Just wanted give you a hug and hope you feel better soon!

I coughed myself awake at some point before 3:30. It's 5:00 now and I've barely had any sleep. My nose is swollen shut on the inside.

Good morning. It’s going to be a good day. I won’t be overwhelmed or frustrated.
Hope everyone has a good one.

Morning...

It’s snowing

I always feel happy when it snows.

Hope everyone has a good day!

So far so good as far as vaping goes. I’m not freaking out or anything. I just need something to do with my hands.

You ok hun

Lol same

AAA will unlock your car for free and bring you gas. It's really worth it

Hey guys,
Had a lovely day yesterday with my friends. It ended kinda crap cos I talked to my friend about my mental health and it makes me feel vulnerable. Good day though.
Today I feel pretty weird. Just thinking if I’m guna be off meds I’m guna get ‘off’ days. Took my pup for a walk which helped. He’s such good company. Seeing my cpn later, I’m guna be honest with her about not being on meds and how I feel. It’s bearable atm so we’ll see.
Parents are bringing a coffee table round soon, hoping they’ll stay for a drink if they have time. Could do with some company

So guys....

I am going to talk to my doctor about something next time I see them.

Basically, I'm starting to think my diagnosis is wrong. I even told my old doctor that at one point but she had disagreed with me. Basically I used to be extremely out of control. Self harm, drinking binges, binging and purging, impulsive shopping spending $1,000 or more on random things. I also had extremely unstable relationships and would bounce from one to another and completely sabotage them. I was very paranoid. Extreme mood swings (happy to suicidally depressed in ten to fifteen minutes for example) in and out of the hospital, non compliant with treatment. So I'm thinking that I may truly actually have borderline. My old Doctor didn't really know what she was doing anyway for various other reasons and she just jumped to a different diagnosis.

It's been bothering me for awhile now, I let it go because I am doing VERY well, but that has been from medication and therapy and working on myself. I just don't want an incorrect diagnosis in my file and think it would be good to have it down so if I have any serious issues in the future it can be a guideline for treatment.

That was half the trouble for me quitting smoking and vaping. I was addicted to not only the nicotine, but the hand actions as well. I always have needed something to do with my hands, otherwise I get very nervous.

I'm sorry you went through those problems with instability. I know too well what you mean. I have the BPD Dx and it explained a lot of problems when I was younger. Especially in my early 20s I was....a mess. I was quick to act on things and had a brutal temper. Several bad friendships ended, but managed to keep a number of good ones thankfully. Family problems, trauma, and self destructive behaviors. Though I managed to stay out of hospital until the last 2 years. Though for me the psychotic symptoms did not present themselves until a couple years ago. Prior to that I was symptom free in that regard.

The hard part of that Dx is the stigma. It can have useful parts to treatment, and things like mood stabilizers and APs can help symptoms. But a lot of times we get bad treatment because of the stigma.

If you want to talk about things at any point, I am an open ear. Feel free to add me on here or FB.

Morning

Having coffee

Bf isnt coming over til midday and then from there we are going to the hotel!!!

Happy Valentines Day everyone!!!

Good afternoon/morning everyone. How are things going today?

I'm doing okay. I was a bit down and struggling this morning. But I visited with my friend this afternoon and it was good to catch up with her. Now just going to try and relax for the evening. I will try and focus and work on my history for the upcoming pdoc in the future. I'll try and go the library tomorrow to work on things.

What's everyone up to?

I don't think I slept more than ten minutes last night. I've been having uncontrollable coughing the past 12 hours.

Went out to vape. My mom is skeptical but the warm vapor actually helps. I wish I could nap.

No sign of my chocolates yet... If they come today I won't be able to taste them. I'll have to put them aside until I'm more well.

I am def borderline
I target all the BPD behavior onto my t though. So he gets the worst of it. Thankfully he is not judgemental and understands why. He does not buy into the bpd stigma. Sure he gets frustrated as anyone would . But he's been the most healing factor for me in that regard. Along with working a job. I don't know if I'm dx with it. Last I checked my dx were schizophrenia and/or schizoaffective [depends on who ur asking], MDD, ednos, and then the drug ones... polysubstance abuse, opiate dependence

Do you have pnuemonia?

Sewed my pizza patch onto my hoodie

morning and happy valentino. managed to do my entire morning routine for once and still had time to cuddle my dog in bed for a few minutes before work. bought cuphead for the bf and restocked on my favorite facial serum.

and as of yesterday i officially have car insurance!!! taking my road test next friday, petrified but its about time, ive had my permit for almost three years ffs.

Ugh im not getting notifications from tapatalk.

Not killed anyone! Wouldn’t mind some nicotine though

OoOoOo the bf is bringing me a “lil gift” he says.