Roll Call 125

Today is gonna suck

If you think it will suck then it definitely will...what could you do to make it less of a sucky day?

I'm ok. It's babymetal.

Im not sure. I say its gonna suck cuz im gonna be alone.

I need to do stuff like put stuff on poshmark again, vacuum, etc stuff like that. I just dont want to. Money is the motive tho.

I don't sleep... I just dream.

Happy morning..

cuz I'm easy.....
easy like Sunday morning

Ding ding ding ohayo wake up

Doki Doki morning

Found out the bf is off tomorrow and Wednesday. Not good. That means ill be home 5 days in a row next weekend. And my dad is off Wednesday as well.

Where is everyone

Was off at the parade and then lunch. I have an awkward tan from a necklace, a sticker, and the strap from my purse it’s hilarious.

I set my alarm for 6:30am to practice guitar but I was,

A vegetable

I’ve been a vegetable for two days. I’m not doing anything but feel so exhausted.

You don't take the Concerta anymore?

Im bored

I think another reason why i havent been doing poshmark is because i really wish i could fit into those clothes again but idk if i ever can anymore.

I "outgrew" all my pants and finally bought new ones. I kept the old ones though in hopes I'll be able to fit into them again some day.

I stopped it few days ago, it made me so anxious and paranoid. Couldn’t handle them.

Grocery shopping. I had to go to Walmart too. Everything was so busy.
Home now drinking my afternoon coffee and eating Milano cookies. Having bacon and cheddar burgers for dinner with potato salad.
What are you up to?

Flucking nothing

I would give anything for the bf to come next weekend instead of monday and Wednesday.

...i just dont want another 5 days alone.

Hmm, interesting insight on the subject. I agree on the part of the mind not being listened to for a long time. May not be the end all for the condition but it could be one of many manifestations of it. For most of the time I have had this stuff I try to ignore or stamp out the hallucinations. But in turn I may be ignoring my own issues with it. If I can grow, communicate, and come to terms with things, maybe some day I can work without medication for it, and maintain a positive relationship with the voices.

I am at medical imaging in the hospital waiting on a renal ultrasound I’m really early but it’s better early then late

My time and setting is getting better. I used to have very good trips (I know I know, but psychs can help with people coming to terms with death and many things but the government doesn't want that and stuff). Anyways, I was manipulated by that old man in the psych ward before I had a very bad trip which I had to recover from.

My thinking was that people only want to be friends with me if they want something from me. It was the only time I heard voices on a trip. Very scary.

Time and setting has been a thing that I was talking about for a while now. It doesn't just have to do with psychedelics. It has to do with your state of mind as you said, surrounded by good people and not sociopaths etc..