Roll Call 139

Sorry to hear that Erti. I get those crying spells sometimes. I usually try to hide it from everyone, so no one knows how upset I am. But this probably isn't the healthiest thing to do.

my online friend who i've been friends with since 2004 let me talk to her. cheered me up.

Glad you feel better.

thanks...

how are you feeling?

I won a coloring book

Coloring the Holidays by Sylvie Cyr

never forget shining star lighttttttttttttttttttttt

Morning

I cant sleep anymore

Had coffee

Bf is asleep

when i was awake and my ex was asleep i would give him a blow job to wake him up.

Lol

I know this sounds weird but i think the bf prefers to get his sleep LOL

my ex happily woken up.

My husband would probably have a coronary of excitement

Morning. Slept like 7 hrs. I feel good.
I’m going to work for a bit today. Just a couple hrs this morning while No one is around. I need the $ for Christmas. You know I’m making $700 less a month than I was in spring/summer. I like the reduced hours but the reduced pay sucks.

i haven't even went christmas shopping yet for anyone. me so broke.

Took my morning meds.

Rainy and cold outside, not looking forward to partial today

Good afternoon/morning everyone. How are things going today?

I'm okay. Finally went to sleep around 5.30am last night. Woke up at 2pm. I think I need to use the sun lamp soon. I'm feeling exhausted a lot. Two cups of coffee helped though.

So far the Note 4 on power saving mode is doing quite well. I'm gonna install the Samsung update soon that helps battery life when I have access to my main computer after my friend wakes up. I feel good about this. I am beginning to come up with an idea of what to offer my roommate for the phone. Given the cosmetic blemishes and burn in on the screen I probably offer 100€ for it. A good condition Note 4 goes between 150-200€.


What's everyone up to?

On holidays I was alone, I used to buy a nice steak if I wasn't going to cook a turkey. I'd have two or three really easy sides like stuffing and cranberries.

I went to sleep earlier last night. I feel like going back to sleep now but I won't. I wish I had Star Trek on TV.

Yes! I finished the assignment. Just in time too. I have class in 2 hours

Planning on going to the gym after class then the grocery store to get some apples and a couple other things

rip stan lee

Just got home

i'm going to be honest... i had stopped taking my medication a few days ago. Apart of me thinking i'd talk to my uncle and grandmother from the dead. Another part of me thinks it's poison. All i was getting was children soaked in blood which was making me want to see my own blood. I had cried until i puked because i couldn't talk to my uncle and grandmother because i'm feeling second best with my parents and with my uncle tim and my grandmother i've never felt second best. I talked to a friend and he convinced me to take my medication. i took my morning dose this morning and plan on taking my evening pills. honestly i still feel like ****. my mom decided she wanted to watch long island medium and it's putting me in a bad place. luckily i have my room to escape to.

My wife kept looking at me this evening...I asked her why and she said she was worried about me. She said I don't look like myself. Really tired. Ugh. My sleep is messed up too.

hope you're alright :/

Co worker, that I deleted from my facebook, asked me why I feel paranoid when I do, what do I have to be paranoid about. But he wasn't even looking for an answer because he didn't want to hash it out. It was quite annoying having to explain myself. I told him that for me, I am the center of gravity in a tragedy where I see the worst of all possible worlds and everyone is trying to destroy me. And he said, yes but WHAT are you paranoid about. but he was short with me. Then we got in the car and the second song he played, the lyrics were, "The world is burning so **** your problems." And I said, "THIS!!!! Don't you see that This is what im talking about, I tell you my problem, then I get into a car where youy play a song that says, **** your problems!" And it dawned on him.

I deleted him from facebook because every girl you date and friend on facebook or his roommate all end up in "Friend suggestions" so I think he's talking **** about me. So I deleted him and have a cleaner conscience.