Roll Call 143

If they were truly plugging in the drag over the weekend, it would have charged more. You can't charge something for 12 hours and have dead batteries. I like the drag quite a lot, but this place is fvcking up my life as usual.

Hey everybody. Good afternoon. I'm late getting on this morning. My boss is out bc she had surgery so I have more to do at work than normal. That's okay, it just means I have less time to be non-productive LOL. I'm tired. I really want to lay on my floor in my office at work except that it is tile and hard and cold. Cripes. I also feel unwell. I keep having SH thoughts even thought that would be a bad idea right now. I also can't seem to type. I have to keep backing up because I'm making spelling mistakes. What's wrong with me today? Hmm. What's wrong with me everyday? That's a better question. It's almost time for lunch. I don't want the lunch my Dad made but I don't want to go get anything either so I guess I will just eat it. IDK. Life sucks today. Sorry to be a downer guys. See my PDOC tomorrow. I'll see what he has to say. Probably nothing...HUGS if you want them. Kit.

I am stressed right now. I am trying to get all the stuff for replacing everything in my wallet together. This is proving to be an absolutely monumental task and its got my anxiety up. I will get this solved but dang. Ugh.

That sounds stressful Findingreason. I hope that it goes smoothly for you. Kit

So. The social worker who smoked us at 1 was there when I said dead batteries and handed her the mod. Yet... rather than charge the drag, she told me awhile ago that they charged the blue one. My blue one is broken.

Instead of charging the one that I gave her, she wasted more time plugging in a malfunctioning one that she didn't ask me about.

I want to kill them. They're deliberately not solving this. And the external charger is still missing.

it's really only with other people and when I feel like they're watching me or staring at me or paying too much attention to me. my friends have said that I'm shaking so I know other ppl see it. I can't take benzos bc of my drug addictions. I take lexapro but a very low dose. it's been going on for a year or so... I'm gonna talk about it with my therapist tomorrow

And now the aide who's been lying to me about charging it when they have not charged it is here to fck up my life further.

Feel better than I did last night. Just cleaned my kitchen and bathroom and took a test for my environmental science class. I'm going to take a shower soon, I haven't taken one it like 2 days...

The social worker figured out the daunting task of plugging it in. At least now I know for sure the aide has not been charging it.

I finally had a decent vape. It's been almost a week.

But now I don't know what to do tomorrow after the aide fails to plug it in again.

I’m sorry. I wish things were better for you

Had too much coffee, lots of anxious energy. Went on several walks but it's still there

I've also been noticing my mood plummeting at night these past few weeks, any of y'all experience this? It's perplexing, I'll have a good day but then just spiral at night.

Yeah, evenings are difficult for me. I'm not sure why

I’ve never noticed it with mood but it definitely happens with psychosis so I don’t see why it wouldn’t happen with mood too...

My problem in the evenings is agitation, anxiety, and voices. So my mood of course then gets bad from that. This evening is okay so far though

Heart fluttered every time I would try to fall asleep in bed. Kept me up until the beta blocker kicked in at 2am..

10mgs of Lexapro is the lowest therapeutic dose of lexapro. What dosage are you on?

Applied for a job today at big lots, doubt I'll get it but might as well try

That's awesome! I hope you get it, if not keep trying

Blah...ate too much and because I’m stupid I had cheese in my frittata.
Kinda tired. Didnt do a damn thing today but I didn’t sleep well. It’ll be good to crawl in bed.
@falcon it seems crazy but just about everything gets worse in the evening/night. In dementia patients they call it sundowners.
Even dogs get a form of it if they have cognitive dysfunction.

Thank you Loial, it's a bad situation. After I put my vape on the cart I asked the different one if she'd charge it and she looked at me like I'm crazy.

I'm hoping things will get better.

My mother is still in the hospital. They must have more tests to do.

I'm drinking my 3rd cup of water, I've been living off coffee for the past month, need to cut back and drink more water

Bed! And since it’s school vacation week...no alarm! I do have to be up by 9 though. My aunt is taking my daughter out for a couple hours.
I’ve been letting Henry sleep with me at night but the pup is still up. Last night he was up and I had to text my son to come get him because he wouldn’t stop crying and pawing at the gate. Not doing that again. Henry is not pleased.

20mg. I can't take high doses of ssris or snris

I've got a job interview tomorrow!