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Old Apr 14, 2019, 10:45 PM
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I think it's very bad and impossible to fix and needs a lot of work. Although interesting to read. Kind of has psychotic ideas in there.. I need to take an English class in the fall cuz it teaches basic things.

Edit: This is an essay where the teacher is supposed to mark it, then I finish it and then send it in again. I have more questions to do and another essay then I'm done the course...
I'm surprise they didn't make you take a basic English course before taking more advance classes. When i was in college they MADE us take English classes before entering classes that we need towards our degree.

I see...

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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:02 AM
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All they needed was high school grade 12 English. But I forget. I need more experience in school...

My goal is to get off of disability and have a career that I like which pays decent money...

But honestly I don't even know what I'm doing. I was dealt a bad card but it wasn't such a bad card.. I don't have PTSD from what has happened even though things really messed with my head.

This is the best time for me to be living in. 2019. I can read books, take in so much information and use it to my advantage.. just I need to figure out how to stop the negative symptoms and laying in bed. I don't know why I do that and can't just DO THINGS. Maybe I'm not inspired enough and need 2 be medicated more
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:03 AM
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But no no more medication.. I meditate sometimes..

The soldiers in my head say I'm not trying hard enough and never will and must dieeeeee
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:14 AM
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ignore those soldiers... they were trolling you. sometimes bad things happen to good people... doesn't mean they deserve it but it's a life lesson to empower us for our future for even more challenges until we die. life is a roller coaster. I didn't expect to be in the hospital again after a month but hell i guess that's what i get for listening to the spirits and cutting myself.

Hecate talks to me... the mother of darkness. mother of darkness, mother of light, earth beneath us soul and flight
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 01:30 AM
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Took vyvanse in the evening to do essay and shouldn't have so I took a benzo cuz panic

Taking my meds as prescribed is getting easier with time though..

Took seroquel.. I just think to myself when panicking, "What are you doing? What am i doing? What are you doing at this particular moment?"

Anxiety is worse than psychosis..
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 01:30 AM
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Not quite sure what to think about this conversation...

Celery Σ: And that is the most important thing but you especially need just the right person to help take care of you
Jessica: i can take care of myself... i just want someone who i can express my love to.
Celery Σ: You say that but you just told me you cut yourself. You have a disability and you need someone who understands how delicate you are.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 04:03 AM
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Slept about 4 hours, seem to not need much sleep lately
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 04:18 AM
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Time to go buy ice cream since a good flavor is on sale!
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 04:32 AM
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I’m a crash course path to destruction I think....just thinking out loud and honestly....
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 05:06 AM
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I’m a crash course path to destruction I think....just thinking out loud and honestly....
I'm sorry i can't be of much help because i'm too in a bad place at the moment. Write your feelings down to pass time while in the hospital.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 05:08 AM
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I'm sorry i can't be of much help because i'm too in a bad place at the moment. Write your feelings down to pass time while in the hospital.
I’m sorry you’re in a bad place too. I hope that I don’t make it worse for you...

I can try. Maybe more letters to burn for the future. The crap that led me here anyway to begin with.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 05:15 AM
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I’m sorry you’re in a bad place too. I hope that I don’t make it worse for you...

I can try. Maybe more letters to burn for the future. The crap that led me here anyway to begin with.
No not at all... I just worry about you that's all.

well get it out somehow... write a journal and don't read back on it and show it to your therapist. write a song/poetry... draw... paint... do something physical to get to pump out some adrenaline. something because keeping it inside is only going to make things worse.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 06:40 AM
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Wow it is pouring. And thundering and lightning. Wish I could sleep. Good day for it.
Been up since 3. Fell asleep for a few minutes but my dog woke me up. Guess it’s just not meant to be today.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 06:43 AM
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that smile, that laugh
as you sin in disgrace
the undeniable, the truth
it is unforgivable
to leave me in misery to pay the price
with your lies, your lies
your dirty little lies.

what am i to do? because i've sin too...
with your lack of remorse
and your lack of cause
that makes me
better than you

Because i'll rise above the abuse
with my tears and my scars too
I have love and faith
even with what you put me through
it's the truth it's the truth,
it's the mother ****ing truth
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 07:10 AM
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hahaha that's a terrible poem.. shows how good at this **** that I really am.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 07:36 AM
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Mother of darkness, mother of light,
Earth beneath us soul in flight,
Songs of love and love of life
Guide us to our heart.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 07:41 AM
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 07:43 AM
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I wish someone else would get up. I’m quite bored Roll Call: 146
I'm not good enough? D:
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 07:54 AM
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Wow it is pouring. And thundering and lightning. Wish I could sleep. Good day for it.
Been up since 3. Fell asleep for a few minutes but my dog woke me up. Guess it’s just not meant to be today.


It was pouring here as well, I've also been up since 3. guess I just don't require much sleep anymore
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 11:19 AM
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I need to stop fooling my "boyfriend"
why do I always hook up with drug addicts and tell them I love them when I don't?

I'm scared. Very very scared. Maybe if I had something to do I wouldn't worry so much. I liked the thunder this morning, waking up to rumbles of thunder and two cats at my feet was good.

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Old Apr 15, 2019, 11:25 AM
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Took a nap Roll Call: 146 feel better now
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 11:27 AM
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I need to stop fooling my "boyfriend"

why do I always hook up with drug addicts and tell them I love them when I don't?


I'm scared. Very very scared. I know there are people putting thoughts in my head, and I know the spirits are following me. I can't go for walks so what do I do now but worry? Maybe if I had something to do I wouldn't worry so much. I liked the thunder this morning, waking up to rumbles of thunder and two cats at my feet was good.


Sorry you're struggling Spikes

I have 2 cats as well and they're very comforting Roll Call: 146
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:03 PM
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I'm not a bad person for gaining some weight I guess
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:03 PM
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My stepdad is gonna come pick me up in 40 minutes and im gonna go over to his and my moms place. I feel anxious as hell this morning. Don't want to be alone.
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Old Apr 15, 2019, 12:52 PM
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My stepdad is gonna come pick me up in 40 minutes and im gonna go over to his and my moms place. I feel anxious as hell this morning. Don't want to be alone.


I’m so glad you have places to go.
I go to grams when I’m overwhelmed. Not to see anyone. Just to be in the fields surrounded by nature and what I imagine to be my moms younger spirit. I find comfort there.
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