Roll Call 155

I'm slightly hypomanic today. I barely slept, have been going non stop since 7am doing stuff, walking,talking, coming up with projects and ideas, my mind is racing and I feel euphoric. I'm trying to reign myself in

I get nervous about things like that too. Could you ask your grandparents to help you?

How could they help me? Idk how.

I meant do they have any advice? You stay with them right?

I don't know anything about how money orders work

My grandpa said he'll write a check and I can pay him back with ATM cash if I can't get a money order. So I'll get rent paid no matter what, I'm just a worrier.

I just took a klonopin. I'm afraid of things escalating. My mind is going like 100mph it feels like my thoughts will fly out of my head

Feeling horrible.

I'm sick of life.

I'm gonna get my money order from the post office instead of my bank, it's cheaper that way and they don't need an ID.

I want to buy the newest ipad pro. Maybe it will help with negative symptoms.

My mom says to wait until the price goes down. She has 10k of my money and won't give me any. I have 600 dollars in my account.

Anxiety is worse today. And I don't feel optimistic.

Thanks guys!

We are broke as of right now. But we both get our work paychecks this friday!

I'm interested in theology and philosophy inspired by alan watts. I'm generally interested in too many things so I can't keep track of everything. Maybe I can free people to think their own thoughts idk.

Gonna meditate later but first I'm watching a podcast with Andrew Snowden (The conspiracy guy that moved to Russia because the US government wanted to put him in jail).

Maybe things can be good.. Idk.. Maybe it's the phenibut kicking in..

Do you still get disability? If not, 80-90% of your meds should be covered by your work.

That's why I'm not too worried if I lose disability cuz my meds would be covered by work.

Yes I do

Hi everyone. Having some SI thoughts today and SH thoughts. I did get lots of sleep though. I'm just sitting watching old mysteries on TV.

Here if you work part time you don’t get medical...

Yeah I'd have to work full time. Idk if I could be able to do it.

Sleep is very good for mental health. I get 12 hours sleep a night. All 12 hours of deep dream sleep.

Most people in small business or trades, here in the US, get 1099'd, meaning we have to get scammed by the ACA and still have to pay deductibles, copays, and monthly payments, none of which are cheap. Deductible for me is $2k, and monthly payments are $150. Meaning we have to pay $3,800 a year if we are to get any help with a year "subscription."

The US government is bought and paid for by big pharma and insurance companies who have their own interest in making money over the actual health care of us.

I dont get my SSID taxed because it's under a certain amount. I've read the ssdi manuals and many websites up and down for years now.

Babe is so excited about the apartment. Hes just going on and on about it and taking videos and showing friends. I'm so happy hes happy. And we did all this by ourselves.

Hey Kit, i hope your weekend is relaxing and you can cope with the SH and SI thoughts

I feel calmer now. Hoping it's not the start of an episode and I can cope/manage it until I see my doctor on the 11th. Will just have to keep an eye on things the call my doctor during the week if things start escalating again