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It’s a meme day today? Here’s one.

I always order the same old flavor, plain dark chocolate 😅

This reminded when I was working, I had this female co worker that was always nice to me. She resigned before I did. At her last day she kissed me a bit too long on the cheek. I thought it was going to be cheek to cheek kiss, which is common here, you bump your cheeks to each other. But no, she kissed me with her lips. I was too shocked to say or do anything. Then she left while crying. Later on my male co worker told me that she had a crush on me.

Man can’t believe give away the good advice for free, I should be getting royalties on that

I'm so tired. But I already confirmed plans to go to dinner with my friend tonight so I have to stay up. I can't wait to sleep tonight. Time for more caffeine

I feel like my mom and stepdad might be talking crap about me behind my back. They talk crap about my sister and her husband to me and between each other. And they really like my sister so idk. They say stuff like "they are in debt" or "they shouldn't have done this and that" etc. Like they laugh and all kinds of things.

It’s possible but I think this may be some kind of guilt about not visiting them on turkey day?

No it's not. I've been thinking about this the past year or 6 months. I try not to think about it. Also cuz I asked them for money and when they started (well my stepdad) asking questions I ignored them.

They also talk a lot of crap about everyone in the family on my moms side.

Let’s say it is true? I think a lot of people gossip, it’s not good but generally they’re just making convo they don’t necessarily mean it outside the heat of the moment. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you etc.

I know my mom loves me. I'm just saying. Cuz I dont have a lot of people in my life that talk crap about each other. At least I'm sure, because they dont talk crap about other people to me. My mom is different. I just dont understand how she can be praising her gonna be rich one day and then turns around and say they are gonna be broke for the rest of their lives. My sister actively avoids any gossip.

Im not sure what’s bothering you about it exactly....I honestly think a lot of families do this, I think it’s more common than not. I mean you talk about your mom like this all the time....gossip/venting.

My old boss put it well one time when I mentioned we sometimes talk about her......she was like I hope so, I’m glad I’m not that boring that you don’t.

I fell asleep for an hour.

Ate a good lunch tho. Ham sandwich and fruit. Gonna make spaghetti squash tonight maybe.

Idk I guess I dont like it coming from my mom. Idc about anyone else. Cuz if anyone else was I'd mostly likely drop them. Or at least confront.

What gets me is she thinks so highly of my sister seems like. So if she talks about my sister, I cant imagine what else she does.

I guess my point was that you’re gossiping about your mom right now...how is it so different?

It's because my mom is the only person in my life that I have this kind of relationship with. This rocky relationship. It's not so much about me tho. It's just I'm thinking if she talks about my sister, and likes her so much, idk what else shes capable of doing in other parts of her life. Of course, I should've seen this when she made fun of fat people and the deaf woman, who'd come into her nail shop in the 90s.

Had a good time with my friends this evening

I told my boss about the mental health games on the Nintendo switch. I found out she has a switch too. That's cool. She told me she will check out the games.

Time for sleep.

That's the second time in a week I've gone out with friends, and I've been going other places too. I'm feeling really good!

One more day and I'm off for 4 days.

That's good. I dont reply much to you, but I'm really rooting for you. You are doing excellent combatting these episodes you've been having.

Thank you, I appreciate that! You're doing great too, you've made so much progress, it's wonderful to see

I bought some juice it's really good. Ejuice. Strawberry, banana, and dragonfruit flavor.

The switch is so awesome, it has such an amazing library of games, there's a lot of lesser known indie games that are great. I'm really glad I got one