Roll Call 157

O boi. And they called us mad lol 😂

Gonna have to reschedule my therapy appointment tomorrow. I doubt my case manager is going to want to drive in all this snow

I have to go out and walk in it tomorrow though, to the pharmacy and store. I'll probably be the only person outside lol. I'll get that over with earlier then enjoy my warm apartment, some coffee , and my book

Are the pharmacy and store far from your apartment?

They're each 10 minute walks there, then 10 minutes back

How are you SP?

I’m very sleepy but I’m afraid to sleep due to nightmares

Sorry you're having nightmares, I used to be afraid to sleep due to them too

I guess I could just do it in one trip to CVS. They have food and stuff there too. I was going to go to another local store too for a few grocery items but I guess there's no point in trying to go out twice

I wish I could have my old energy back. I am so lazy and depressed these days...

I’m trying to think what’s the cause of this as I haven’t had nightmares this often for a while. I still did sometimes like once a week but not every time I sleep like now. I don’t think I’m depressed, I’m not feeling I’m unsafe, there’s no new stress in life so I really have no idea..

I hope you're able to get some sleep soon without the nightmares

I feel soooo great. But I'm cold. Need to warm up.

Gonna watch netflix

Redid my rough draft paper for the video pitch. Then did my video and turned it in today.

I'm so tired. I'm so much more tired the past 2 weeks or so. Idk why.

That's great! I hope things go well with the video.

You've been very busy, plus stress from the holidays and whatnot

Might get an iTunes card tomorrow. Need new music. Hard to believe but I'm getting bored of the same 903 songs on my iPod. Need to expand my collection more

True. It might also be the med change.

I dont think they sell iTunes cards anymore. They might, but I heard apple was getting rid of iTunes, and instead promoting Apple Music.

I didn't know that, I'll figure something out

The psych ward was more traumatizing than my mental illness itself.

I'm so hyped up. From 3 cups of coffee and just excited about life in general 😃

This, seriously. Ugh, I hated it every single time.

No work on Monday (tomorrow) but I see my therapist. I plan on going to the café again tomorrow and keep reading my short story. I have a couple people in mind to get a second opinion... It's pretty dark, but that's pretty much my life. Life has made me a dark cynic I guess after all of my experiences. Saw a coworker/friend today. He took a job at me and that's eating away at me too. So next time I contradict his jab im going to have to let him be aware of it, because that's the best solution I suppose. everybody misunderstands everybody... It's not healthy.

I remember being a cynic and my coworker said "Why don't you smile?" and told me to smile so I did but really couldn't. Then he kept bothering me about it like every other day.

Good thing that I did shroom. (I don't recommend at all).

I've been teaching myself how to grow plants. I want to buy a fluorescent light and grow one or two in my closet. It will be good for spirituality. Then I can sell the buds to the hiking group.

Gotta shovel snow, I worry that I just don't care enough anymore. Always makes me feel better to get outside and do some work.