Roll Call 158!

My sister found out she has rectal cancer about a month ago. My mom had breast and now has ovarian cancer. My sister now has the flu on top of cancer, but my moms white counts are low due to chemo. My sister has to move back in with the family for care during her own chemo and radiation. Sorry I know it’s confusing.

Thanks bluebird, I think we need all the help we can get.

Saw flamin hot Doritos at the store today. Wonder if they're anything like the cheetos. Those things are amazing

Keep u guys in my prayers too. Including u.

Thanks Newtus

Next there will be a flamin hot Doritos taco at Taco Bell......

I've been struggling a lot lately.

I slept a lot today and now I'm hallucinating and believing the FBI is after me.

There already is I think

I'm sorry to hear about your mom and sister SP. I hope things go towards the best they can be and the transition for all of you.

I slept all day. Can't take a Vyvanse at night so I'm extremely tired and slow.

My moms friend with bipolar/borderline PD came over to bring food. She judged me for staying up all night and made me feel bad. Said "Just go skiing and be fun" eventually after saying that I might. I should have told her that I don't feel good but I don't want them to know about withdrawal from phenibut. My sister was doing the same thing.. Harassing me saying "What do you do all night on the computer?" I hate when people ask me questions like that.. Well, I was sending trip reports to my friends, listening to music and helping pharmacology students find research papers for clobenzorex, facebook, snapchat, YouTube, forums, etc..

What's the point of telling people what I do when when I list what I did, they interrupt me in the middle of listing everything? What the **** social fish ****ery is that?

Then when I was going back to bed, she said "Oh so you're gonna let your sister clean up after you?". What a *****. I said to my sister last night that I would clean the dishes in the morning and she said that she likes to do them..

This is what happens in phenibut withdrawal.. I don't have the confidence to defend myself in real life because I can't organize my speech and everyone harasses me. It pisses me off. If people could just accept that I'm in a low mood, they wouldn't be such terrible people. I should have told her I'm not feeling well but then she'd be like "Why?". **** sake.

50mg CBD is helping with my dystonia

Sorry you're struggling falcon I used to have a delusion where I believed the FBI was after me, I know it's scary, I hope you feel better soon

Trying to wean slowly off of Xanax and it is awful... Anyone know of any tips? I am definitely suffering from withdrawal syndrome, whatever that means.

The worst part is I have **** to do for this week! I can't not do that work. I don't know... It's bad.

I called my pdocs office and got an appointment for 9am, which is about an hour and 20 minutes from now.

Sorry you're going through that I don't have any experience with it but I know there's a couple people on this thread who do have experience withdrawing from benzodiazepines, maybe they'll be around to offer some tips later. I hope you find something that helps you

Slept really good last night. Got up and had a shower. Might go to the library later

It's okay to be in a dark place. You're human and that's always allowed.

It's none of their business, actually. If you don't want to tell them then that's your choice and they should respect that.

I don't permit people to talk when I'm talking. It's rude to interrupt people. They should know better.

No one has the right to harass you, **** that noise. If someone told me that they're in a low mood I'd say something like, "if you need anything let me know" and I'd leave it at that. People are so intrusive, I don't understand it.

Damn, that's rough.

What symptoms are you having? I just got through benzo withdrawal myself.

I found that what helped me was taking extra care of myself physically as my withdrawal symptoms were purely physical: headaches, nausea, and my ever present insomnia got worse for awhile.

Anxiety. And also just demotivation.

Man I didn’t fall asleep until like midnight but I feel ok....

My doctor said I had "thought broadcasting" and that he rarely sees that in his patients. At least I'm interesting, lol.

He upped my haldol to 10mg

Thanks. It just reminds me of... the soldiers.. then the crypto investor.. then the women in the compassion house for cancer... then her.. People are so intrusive to me. I'm a very hard person to get to know. People don't understand me.

She has borderline personality disorder. She's intrusive af and LOVES drama. I never liked her from the start. I told everyone I didn't like her and for my mom to be careful with her. She's probably still doing coke. I feel sorry for her in a way cuz she thinks she's ugly and she really isn't (Just has wrinkles - Which she should be happy that she made it to be 45) and wants to date "boys" my age. It's weird. But I suppose that's what happens to people. The fate of being dealt a bad card.

I abused benzo for 2 month then stopped. No withdrawal.

Now I'm really careful with how many I take. Maybe one every week to two or three weeks if I'm feeling slightly anxious at a social gathering I'll take one in the washroom like a mall or a bar or something or to sleep.

I don't believe benzos should be taken every day. My mom takes an Ativan every night. I say it's bad but she won't listen. My sister takes Ativan PRN and I said that it's not a good idea because her panic attacks go away by the time that the benzo kicks in.

I'm extremely conservative with benzos. Idk why.. I just know that they are dangerous. Best to get off them slowly and use rescue doses 1-2 times a week while in withdrawal.