Roll Call 158!

Sundowners only occurs in old people to my knowledge......

Losing others at any age is painful. Pets included.

So I deleted everyone from my dads side of the family and people I’ve met through them. **** them. Didn’t even wish me a marry Christmas because I’m not a dumb *** trump supporter and I didn’t agree with my dad and his views and thinks I should think the way he does because he was in the military. News flash asshole there’s military members who think similar **** then I do. Plus I JUST got out the hospital that DAY. Suck my **** you ****ing pricks.

Also I went over to visit them one time and I called them and asked them if they’d be there about an hour before coming. They said they’re not going anywhere. So I messaged them about a 10 minutes before arriving and they said ok they’re be there. So I arrive at their place and no one was ****ing home. I called and asked if they’re there. They told me they left and I asked how long they be gone. It was like 6:30pm and the ****ers said they wouldn’t be there until ****ing 10pm. I got upset and as I went to hang up the phone I said “****ing *****” ( f’in B). After that I was getting weird vibes from them so I’m assuming she heard me and I hope the **** so.

Took an olanzepine, one benzo and 200mg caffeine. I had an upper/downer nap for 2 hours my mom could hear me quietly snoring.

Well zyprexa knocked me out like sometimes 16 hours a day.

Yeah I feel like a zombie. I'd rather be a little psychotic or whatever

i keep trying to fall asleep but i cant

Eh I working on 4 hours of sleep in the last 24 hours. Not sure how but I’m making it lol. Tonight me and my friends girlfriend got to move stuff away from sly he wall and empty the cabinets and such and move stuff away from the walls for pest control.

Yeah sleeping all day kinda feelings like you’re sleeping your life away.

Feeling better and not so zombie like (Vyvanse).

Slept a lot, really tired. Still waiting to hear back about the medication dose question

Monday is the follow up appointment at the new apartment place. Hopefully I can move in February! Looks like we're just finalizing some stuff. I can't wait. It's going to be stressful moving but definitely worth it

Congrats! Hope it goes well!

Thanks! I hope so.

I'm trying to pull myself out of this depression, it's hard

Hope it resolves soon.....

So my mom is getting out of the hospital yay!

That's awesome! 😃

Thanks yeah she’s glad to be leaving I think. She woke up feeling much better this morning plus i think they maxed out the five days insurance will cover.....

I can ****ing relate so much it's ****ing nuts. My father and his family are all ****ing Trump supporters and like, the worst kind too. ******* it's a bunch of ********. I hate it.

Trying out positive affirmations to replace some negative thoughts. Going to a free community brunch tomorrow then probably to the evening mass at my church

I understand, I hate talking about it and usually just don’t. But ****, I understand. I’m sorry.

Great news!!!

That sounds great! On the Wellbutrin topic, could you take one pill per day until you find out what the pdoc says?

I guess I could do that. I'm not sure about the SR version though, maybe I should split one 200mg tablet and take half in the morning and the other half at night, cause I think it's meant to be a twice a day dosed med. I'll try that because I need something to help me in the meantime while I wait, thanks