Roll Call 158!

I think the prescription was correct, because the old one was BUPROPION HCL XL 150 MG TABLET Tablet Extended Release 24 hr and the new one is BUPROPION HCL SR 200 MG TABLET TABLET SUSTAINED-RELEASE 12 HR

I guess that's why it has to be taken 2 times a day. I'll still verify with my doctor though to make sure

I haven't been in this area for a while. I feel strange right now. I don't take psych meds presently. I worry about the side effects. I also don't presently have a therapist. I dread the beginning part, finding the right one, then getting to know each other, & trusting, or learning to. But I'm not giving up on the idea. Just waiting for the right moment.

It's gonna be a 2.7x increase in dose so be careful. You might feel a little stimmed.

Unless 24hr is just taking it every 24hr and extended release throughout the day and the blood concentration is very low while you sleep.

Edit: Nvm the half life is like 35 hours but I think 3x the dose still kind of applies. That's why it takes weeks to kick in.

I'm still waiting for them to call me back. Not going to take it until I find out for sure

They might have made a mistake, idk

I had a psychotic break last night. It was one of the worst psychotic states I've been in. I was afraid that I would end up in the hospital. I was thinking about the antipsychotic killing my brain cells, that I don't have schizophrenia or don't want it, that a farmer would judge me but then I realize that he was a pilot before he got the money. I took 200mg caffeine to sit down and read but ended up talking to people for turkey dinner. I felt stupid. I started to feel anxious and "Schizo" around everyone, holding my foot with my hand. We all went down to see christmas lights and I wanted to go home and sleep because I always feel better in the morning. Idk if I was having a dissociative panic attack, something to do with autism or psychosis. I felt really weird and didn't like technology where everyone was taking pictures. It was really weird and I was afraid of technology, starting thinking about psychedelics like I was tripping, everything I was doing to put stuff in my bag, I couldn't organize everything and wires kept disconnecting like on a bad trip and I said "What does this mean? I'm really ****ed". I thought the advertisements on the TV were messed up because they were talking about stroke medication and I thought "What if I have a stroke?".

I went to bed with the covers over my head and my mom asked if I was ok so I told her some things and she said I was definitely in psychosis. She said to take an olanzepine and while I was waiting for it to kick in, she got me to watch something on TV that wouldn't make my psychosis worse - It was a christmas comedy. I started to watch it and couldn't understand ANYTHING. I couldn't laugh. Then I was laughing at things that weren't funny but I thought they were hilarious like an LSD trip.

It finally kicked in and I went to sleep, woke up completely fine.

I was also thinking about ESTP personalities and how they hate INFP but some have always liked me if they knew me. When they don't (Like the crypto investor), they judge me saying I'm asexual and think that I'm disgusted my sex. I'm not. I'm completely happy with people talking about sex I have no problem with it. I just desire not to be in a relationship at this point in my life. They love me when I'm in a good mood. But sometimes I'm not in a good mood and seem anxious and avoidant, sad, etc.

My Invega injection is tomorrow. It's been 27 days since my last one.

I thought about how I wanted to be alone in space.

I'm feeling INTP but took the test and it says "INTJ". I suppose psychosis really messes me up and I feel more autist.

Especially the "J" thing now that I'm getting my **** together.

The psychedelics are wearing off or it could be because of the olanzepine.

My good persona is dead right now. I can't access it. And I've been atheist again.

I need to refill my self care box. What do you guys put in it?

I've been thinking of interesting lines of thought or my short story, and i've started another dialogue with someone religious, and where that's taking me is a place of delusions of grandeur. It's insane where I'm going with my train of thoughts, but given the story... not as much crazy as the story itself! For it litearlly has the garden of eden, the tree of knowledge, a devil like character I call the shadow, it has everything but this delusion of grandeur this character is reaching lol If I add this dialogue, there is no turning back, people are going to ether think I"M INSANE or I"M INSANE! hahahahaha But I literally AM, so I think I have a good excuse.

Anything you like, gift cards are great so you can do retail therapy...scented stuff, essential oils and soaps.....fluffy robe and pjs...photos. Etc

husband's undies. HAHAAHAH

(pervert!)

Me not you.

See how easy that it?

Retail therapy is the best 😂 Yeah I’m running out of essential oils. Thinking about getting a scented candle too. Soaps sound good as well. I love taking a bath. Thanks!

O boi, DT. I missed your humor hahaha 😂

I just got for Christmas some prayer cards from a coworker, those are going to go in my self care box. Not sure if you're religious, but if not, some positive statements could work as well. Also have the names and numbers of three hospitals that I can go to in my box, suicide hotline numbers, inspirational posters, I need to find some stuff to do with my hands, like silly putty or something like that. Scents are good, photographs, drawings from my nieces and nephews, a small stuffed animal.

Beautiful pictures SP! It's snowing here! It hardly ever snows and yet this year it snowed on Thanksgiving and today!

Thanks, it’s 62 here!

Nobody ever called me back so I have no idea about the wellbutrin dose still

I am religious. This is a good idea. Thanks!

I had a LONG a-- day.

I dont feel good. Like I feel irritated. Or upset or something. Work was weird and tough today. My coworker was off and on the phone all day with her husband because his dad was at the hospital about to be taken off life support and he wanted to live. And it was just tough having to hear all the details of it. Like idk. And then I had to drive 2 hours, which is ok. But then I got back to the city area and spent like the last two hours of work twiddling my thumbs while my boss answered a million calls and emails.

I should accept my current states. But I never do.

I'm crying so hard right now.

I could feel the energy come off my coworker...the sadness was radiating off her and onto me.

I hate how empathetic I am. Peoples sadness is very toxic for me. I'm not like a huge believer in bad vibes and energy radiating off people, but I kinda am.

I'm crying for her husband and her father in law right now. I could feel her husbands pain through the phone, and the sadness in her eyes.

Good, good.. *Rubs hands together*

It's good to be empathetic. Doctors/nurses, therapists/counselors, paramedics/firemen, etc.. all good people..

What are the Signs & Symptoms of Sundowners Syndrome?
Sudden mood swings.
Anxiety.
Sadness.
Restlessness.
Energy surges.
Increased confusion.
Hallucinations.
Delusions.

This is why I feel better in the morning.