Roll Call 160!

That’s great

Apparently findyouranchor is sending me one of their packages. I requested one when SP brought it up, like 4 months ago when I was struggling. Was surprised to see the email tonight.

I’m open to anything right now tbh... I’m lucky I’m even eating right now. Latuda isn’t doing ****.

My sister is going to come by the new place Sunday for coffee. Will be nice, I can show her the apartment. I’ll be in a 1 bedroom instead of a studio. It’s really, really nice.

I just got an email they are sending me one too. But because I ordered it like last june it's going to my old address. Oh well.

That sucks 😔 thankfully I’ll still have access to my old apartment for most of feb. , I guess I can pick it up when I come to work on packing and whatnot

Hm, I just googled them because I never heard of them before. What do they put in a box initially?

Has anyone heard from @SlumberKitty

No, I've been wondering if she's alright

I can’t believe it took that long....that’s kinda super lame 😒

She hasn’t been on Pc for five days....that’s unusual...hope she’s ok.

Sorry....did you ever have any luck trying to get clozapine? Have you ever tried higher doses of cbd? I read something last night that said a single dose of cbd could block Psychosis.......here is the article...

Study: CBD From Marijuana May 'Reset' The Brain To Counteract Symptoms Of Psychosis

I haven’t been able to get Clozapine and I can’t afford a high dose of CBD. Extremely annoyed but hey at least I have a new damn case manager right now because my old one “left”.

So I'm not doing too well. Lots have happened these past two days. Yet I'm okish on the phenibut.. Everything is really really ****ed up. I see my therapist tomorrow. I was going to go to sleep but something really ****ed up happened again. Everyone around me is ****ed up and coke heads.

I'm going to make a dysfunctional ****ed up update for my blog. I'm just ****ed. That's all.

Making another stew tomorrow. Neck bones and beans.

Yeah I’m not so sure about the cbd thing anyway....I’d be afraid to take a dose like that in case something happened it’s also big bucks.....now if tweaky were here....

Sorry to hear desoxyn....I’ll check out your blog later on.....

I think only SK has gotten one before but it’s a suicide prevention box so it has inspirational stuff in it.

I’ve actually heard of cbd helping with psychosis and such. Just require extreme high dosage of cbd to even take effect for most who it works for.

According to one of her last posts she was going to be alone for three days over the weekend ....have to say I’m really concerned.

Yeah I remember a UK study about it a few years ago but I think because of the high doses it’s not something most people can manage. I just wasn’t sure in this study what happened after the single dose wore off....like if you’re back to baseline psychosis or if you stay well for an extended period.

Not quite sure. I Just know that it had some antipsychotic properties to it.

I used small doses. It helped, but made me tired. Gave me a feeling, too, akin to thc. No paranoia or hallucinations, just a super relaxed feeling. I probably just associated it with thc and felt uncomfortable. Last time was last summer I took it. Ever since then I've been fine. No additional psychosis or anything. I wouldnt use it for psychosis particularly tho. Maybe anxiety or an extremely stressful situation. When I took it when I was extremely stressed it was very, very helpful. But if I had taken it when I had mild anxiety, it made me too relaxed. Which i didnt like.

But personally, I am not a fan of being uber relaxed. I think because I've been on my toes since I first had anxiety when i was a kid. So I'm used to being overly cautious, on my toes, on edge, etc. It keeps me aware and grounded. When I get too relaxed, like on xanax or the like, or even cbd, I feel scared, because i feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. Only because my personal reality is being super, super, super on my toes and hyper aware.

So I may be the exception to the rule.

My sister tried it and like nothing happened at all....she didn’t feel a thing.....

That's interesting. I was just thinking, youd think people who are on edge would want to calm down, and people who are always relaxed need something to spruce them up. Which is why people do drugs I guess. But I'd prefer to always be on my toes and hyper aware.

If I didnt have my night meds or aka the over the counter stuff my pdoc told me to take, I'd never ever sleep.