Roll Call 160!

No, they just pull them as far as I know.

@Day Tripper I requested that book you recommended and it's available for pickup at the library today, so I'm gonna go grab it tomorrow

Doctor is happy with the things I'm doing. I read the list to him. He says I'm doing more things than him D: he says that he listens to podcasts too =]

I'm waiting at Tim hortons drinking a small coffee (Cuz I already had an energy drink) and donut - waiting for pharmacy to refill my meds and prepare my Invega injection.

I might feel like a zombie for the next 2-4 days because of the injection. I won't have so much racing thoughts and I love racing thoughts but after taking 7.5mg of olanzepine (Zyprexa) for the past 3 days (Because it's the end of my injection), I realize that antipsychotics arent so bad. Especially if they improve stable neuroplasticity and help me focus.

tonight I will clean/change the litter box, take the trash out, and scrub the counters. Just posting it here to hold myself accountable

Going to have dinner with my friend tonight

Have fun @Blue_Bird!

Never felt this content before.

But now injection will zombie me

I truly hope you enjoy it BB. The protagonist is a young woman like yourself.

My emotions are everywhere right now, and I can't tell which one I ought to feel other than confused and frustrated like never before.

Hugs DT....

Had fun with friends at dinner

Hm. This is interesting.

What's up @newtus?

I cant talk about it publicly. Weird I know. It's business, tho.

The library was still open when I met up with my friends for dinner so I went ahead and picked up that book I had on hold request, look forward to getting into it

I cleaned and changed the litterbox, still have to take trash out and scrub counters. Those will be the first things I do tomorrow morning. Then I'm going to that free community brunch that happens once a month, and their free clothing room, so maybe I can get some clothes that fit better. I will be able to finally purchase a few pairs of new good quality jeans next month because of having a lot more money with the new apartment's rent being much lower than my current place. Sunday I'm going to lunch with my friends.

My plan for after I move and get settled into the new apartment is to get into a vocational rehab program, get a part time job, pay off my student account at my college then enroll in classes part time and finish my associates degree

How President Trump and Dr. Drew Got it Wrong on Deinstitutionalization - Mad In America
Apparently trump is trying to restart mental health institutions......great......

I slept on and off until 5pm. Idk why I've been sleeping so much lately

Oh God.. Forget that the 60's is coming back.. Now it's the 50's..

What if I was in a constant autistic ego death until age 21 (After I did psychedelics)?

I met someone on tripsit chat that said he was in a constant ego death until age 20. He said he had severe aspergers.

Psychedelics apparently can increase pattern recognition or decrease it. For me, it made me solve the paradox in my mind so it increased it dramatically to 100% a few years after my trip. Now it's just up to my cognition. Now I know exactly that IQ test questions are all have the same property of the paradox (I knew this before but it was like being blind to "Is that how reality really works?" with the left right, male female, end start, up down, etc etc)

Your haldol was increased recently right?

I'm probably going to be up all night since I slept 17 hours.. that's crazy. Maybe it's because I was doing so much and walking so much for a week

And that's why Albert Einstein was a pantheist. He was in ego death and they called him dumb as a child. But at age 12 he taught himself geometry?

Fiance got on me about not cleaning lately. I've been depressed lately. And it seems to be getting worse slowly.

I tried to reiterate what's been happening but he says it's not fair he has been doing all the cleaning. Which I fully understand. Its hard tho. My ex has been stalking me past week. And some other things with my career. Now I just found out tonight that my mom has gotten ill while in mexico.

This was the psych ward I went to but this building is the old one. They built beside it a new hospital that I went to.