Roll Call 160!

Tacos again for dinner. 3 days now. Cooked all three days. Tired of tacos.

Off til monday. Thank ya jesus.

I’m glad you don’t feel that way! You should be confident.

I feel really depressed even though I'm on phenibut. I was listening to summertime sadness by lana del ray and now I'm going to try and play it on the guitar!

Good coping mechanism right? I feel like music is my soul.

Hey thanks, it's just thoughts. I ended up falling asleep for a couple hours and feel a little better

Thanks DT, I'll definitely check that out sometime!

I started a physics course online, I'm thinking of playing guitar/piano again, was reading a bit (But bad reviews on the book I was reading so it put me off), I go skiing at least 1-2 times a week, taking walks, taking a shower almost every day, brushing my teeth every day, doing 20 hour water fasts.. And just a few other things.

I'm doing pretty well compared to/considering being completely disabled.

I just feel sad...

If I hear a good song it can make me hypomanic.

I'm very sensitive person.

So how's the forum handling so far I think I'm going to go ahead and say it, so what happened to the chat in this site.

So the phenibut is making me productive and I always feel good and have good ideas before I go to bed so this is what I'm going to say to my doctor on the appointment tomorrow;

Mental health;
1. Depression: Been a bit depressed for a month until I wrote this stuff down and back on track like how I was - I usually feel better at night before I go to bed.
2. Psychosis: Having slight symptoms at the end of my injection.
3. OCD: Obsessing more about things and certain rituals like making decisions and repeating things a certain specific number of times.
4. Anxiety: Very low.

Things I’m doing right now;
1. Music: Playing guitar (I’m going to buy an electric guitar) and piano.
2. Exercise: Skiing 1-2 times a week, might do cross country skiing, could be hiking this winter, walking almost every day, thinking of using the gym.
3. Socializing: Being around people a lot (Sometimes to the point where it can be overwhelming)
4. Exercising mental brain: Started a physics course online to see what it takes to be a pharmacologist (Which I don’t think I’m sure that I want to do) - Also I think physics is cool and can be fun (Psychiatrist recommended I do this), Solving hard puzzles on brain game apps and internet.
5. Increase knowledge about things: Listening to podcasts a lot, was reading a bit (But bad reviews on the book I was reading so it put me off).
6. Hygiene: Having a shower almost every day (Having cold showers for 5 minutes when I’m done), brushing my teeth every day.
7. Health: Doing 20 hour water fasts and eating healthy (If asked why: Kills precancerous cells, re-set insulin sensitivity, improve immunity, increase muscle mass, longevity, improve will-power, develop the ability to fast if needed, reduce body fat?, more energy, motivation, mood and focus!, spiritual experience, detoxify from bad chemicals and enhance learning and memory).
8. Sleep: Sleeping 10-12 hours a night.
9. Responsibilities: Taking care of my mom (Washing dishes, cleaning litter box, shovelling snow from sidewalks and emptying garbages every day).

Things I plan to do;
1. Spiritual and relaxing: Meditating every day, watching Netflix or reading before bed.
2. Social: Talking to people at coffee connections from 1-3pm.
3. Responsibilities: Getting a part time job and might go to school part time again.
4. Researching: Investing in stock market, cryptocurrency and day trading (Discord and reddit, psychonaut and investing servers), researching about my moms specific breast cancer, conspiracies, how to make money online.
5. Improve vocabulary and language: Learn about one country every day (Learn Spanish), learning one new English word every day and one Spanish word.

Meds;
1. Invega Sustenna 150mg every 4 weeks (Bring back to every 3 weeks)
2. Seroquel 50mg (Prescribe 4x 25mg’s so it’s back to 100mg if possible) - NEED REFILL
3. Vyvanse 50mg (Allow for 2x 5mg’s of Dexedrine a day in the evening for focus - 60x 5mg) - NEED REFILL
4. Olanzepine 5mg PRN (This helps me to focus without feeling pain and I have 16x 5mg refills)
5. Atenolol 50mg every 12 hours (Stay the same) - NEED REFILL

Supplements;
1. Fish oil (3 a day)
2. Vitamin D (1000ui in the morning)
3. Melatonin 10mg (Every night - Going to stop taking this eventually)

Drugs I’m taking;
1. Marijuana and CBD (Low doses rarely)
2. Phenibut (1g a day - Decreasing)
3. Alprazolam (0.5mg a night - Decreasing)

Drugs I’m not taking;
1. Alcohol (Stopped drinking because of psychedelic flashbacks - Derealization and depersonalization (Dissociation) which causes panic attacks).
2. Psychedelics - DMT, Shrooms, LSD (Taking a 5-10 year break)
3. Cigarettes (Quit 6 months ago and using nicotine gum instead)

SP,
How much DHA and EPA is in your fish oil supplement? I'm shopping and trying to find a good one

I’m using Nordic naturals algae omega.....it’s got 712 total omega and smaller pills that you take two of....195 epa, 390 dha and 130 other omegas. So it’s got like twice the dha in this type.

Good Morning

Took a couple of days off from PsychCentral and I missed it. It's made me feel disconnected from people and more stuck.

I'll spend my usual Friday afternoon and evening hanging out with my sister. We'll go out to dinner and then watch some episodes of The IT Crowd which is a British TV comedy series. I always enjoy these visits with her.

...morning.

Its morning and not the best day already.

Hope your day gets better @newtus

I feel nothing. Maybe I'm empty. Maybe I don't exist. I think it is going to be a long day at work. We aren't very busy right now. I should work on my self harm safety plan that Care Coordinator wants. I don't feel like doing anything. Low motivation.

I don't feel like telling my doctor about that list of things. I don't feel as happy as I did last night so I'd just read it in monotone and confusion.

OMG just when I was saying I don’t like Netflix anymore they added pandemic......I only just started but incredible already...

I somehow slept from 7pm last night till 12:30pm this afternoon

One of me > : )

Maybe you needed it......how do you feel this afternoon?

Alright, just tired and feeling unmotivated

Doctor is gonna check my blood pressure but I drank an energy drink.

I get my Invega injection today! But I feel fine..

Idk if I need antipsychotics anymore (I know.. I switch back and forth..)

My insurance denied the root canals so I have to have 2 teeth pulled

Do they give you fake teeth?