Roll Call 160!

Hopefully your new place is quieter.....

Didn't get my errands done because it started pouring outside, but I did over an hour of yoga today so I feel less groggy. Later, I watched trashy daytime TV for some reason and it was pretty funny.

Gonna have two bowls of cereal take benzo and 50mg quetiapine maybe ill fall asleep without heart being weird

Good morning

Today my sister and I are taking my mother to get a pedicure. My mother has dementia and doesn't remember she used to love getting pampered like this so it's been a challenge to get her to be willing to go. But her toes are a mess because she doesn't do much self-care anymore, so it needs to happen.

I just did 45 minutes of yoga and feel all woken up.

Today I see my pdoc to talk about my Zyprexa dosage and the side effects. He may decide to put me on something else if we find I've gained more weight which I'm sure I have.

Hang in there today people!

Talked to pdoc and we are going to leave my meds as they are. I really feel now I can manage the symptoms with exercise and the appetite suppressant. I gained a little more weight but that had more to do with the holidays than Zyprexa-induced binges like I was doing before the Phentermine. I'd rather "stick with the devil I know" than try another antipsychotic and have to learn new side effects to deal with. I think I'm doing okay now with things as they are.

Went out and got a frozen pizza....the pot roast I made is good but it’s kind meat overload for me.....

I'm going in to sign the lease on my new apartment Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That’s so awesome!

I’ll be staying there beginning this Friday. I’m just bringing a few things with me and the rest of my stuff I have all of February to bring over. Should only take a week or so though.

Lexapro makes me sleepy xd

Sorry to hear that lexapro made me extremely manic

I put on my sweater this morning and it was looser. Not really a sweater. More like a long sleeve shirt. But it used to be tight around the arms like a month ago. Not anymore. Theres slack in it now.

I talked to my doctor about the possibility of Lexapro making me manic, since it's an SSRI. He said it was a risk, but my depression was bad enough to where I needed an antidepressant or else try ECT. He also said that the lithium I'm on might prevent the mania.

I'm going to see about getting off thorazine when I see my doctor in march. I think it depresses me and I have lost interest in pretty much everything I normally enjoy. and I have no energy and am tired all the time. I want to see if I can do okay on just my other meds (Abilify, Trileptal, Paxil, Wellbutrin) she did say I could decrease it to 200 if the 400 is too much, I think now that I'm out of an acute episode it may be a good time to do that and see how it goes then re-evaluate when I see her again whether getting completely off is a good idea or not

What kind of pizza did you get?

I had fast food for dinner. I wish I had more will to cook, but I do not. Tomorrow I have to work alone, which I dislike. I like working in at least pairs. Packing up all the equipment from a house into the vans always takes a lot of time, then I have to vacuum and sweep everything. the of that really takes extra time.

Watching the black list lately. On season 7. It's a great show, it's the longest running show with a solid story all the way through so or.

My emotions are everywhere, I'm still trying to figure out what exactly is happening. I see my therapist in a few days, so I'll have to prepare for that and maybe write everything down to get down to brass tacts (tax)? My life is pathetic. I wish meds would take away my paranoia that is actually justified. But then again, I'd be putting others at risk for some sick people who get off on watching me suffer and yell out into the void.

Studio or 1 bd?

I loved my studio so much. That's all a person needs, but they aren't always available.

What floor are you on?

Since im a "new member" my posts are moderated. It's nice to see that they take care so much. That's part of the reason I like this place...

Just a digiorno Supreme.....

Exactly, a primary moodstabilizer like lithium, lamictal, Depakote, or Trileptal will prevent bipolar symptoms even if you're on an ssro or snir.

I enjoy the private selections I get at my local grocery store. I had a veggie one which was, okay but that brand makes other ones well.

ughh I want Oreos

And Reese's cups.

Oh no I thought the cravings were better after the first few days?

They are, I'm just craving anything really because I have no food in the house right now except enough for a bowl of plain oatmeal. I'm going to the salvation army tomorrow for breakfast if I wake up on time. My foodstamps come in Sunday