Roll Call 172

Sorry, newtus. Maybe u will get sleepy in a little bit. Hugs.

No posts in two hours, that's slow. I was too late for the bathroom today and had to wait for two other people. And then it was a mess.

I'm very tired.

It was extremely hard to wake up this morning. I pressed the snooze button and fell asleep around 10 times this morning.

Hang in there, Angelique, you're doing awesome.

Nice ride this morning. Pretty sure I was just psslychotic w those visions. Thanks, SP. So much. I guess I cannot always tell until after an episode is over. Oh well.

Hugs.

Pics from ride.

Thanks for sharing!

Got the sausage and peppers cooking in the crockpot

How lovely, Blue!!!

Beautiful pics!

Going to vacuum at 1pm. It's 12:22 now. Setting specific times to do things holds me accountable because I have to do it whether I have the motivation to or not, and if I don't then the motivation usually follows after starting something anyway

Ugh. Place is such a mess.

That’s how I am

Got some sleep.

Still not feeling the best. I posted on a group on fb about feeling like a dumbfck and someone say it’s probably cuz it’s secretly true.

There's idiots in every group that have nothing better to do than make nasty comments to people, they're just trolls and their opinion means nothing

Thank you bb

How are you? You been playing switch? I downloaded ninjala. It’s a free to play game.

Job, I’m reading your book. Very interesting! On page 10 I think.

I'm doing well, trying not to be anxious about inspections next week. Just doing what I can to remain calm and not worry about it. Before I know it it will be done and over with and everything will be okay.

I've mostly been playing animal crossing. I have cookie as a resident and love her, she's so cute. I play pokemon too every now and then, both sword and shield and lets go pikachu (trying to get all the master titles in Lets Go)

I've never heard of ninjala, I'll have to check it out. I'm gonna need to save up for a switch memory card eventually. I want to get the 512gb or 1TB.

The food smells amazing, can't wait to eat tonight.

Got the vacuuming done

I have such deep existential questions about myself lately.

This whole thing, going into this school, has me questioning my identity as an individual. I can feel my brain morphing into this existential being. Not literally feel, but like sense or recognize, I mean. The whole past 5 years I’ve tried to keep my life superficial in my interests. Superficial, as in, not having my interests go deep like I did when I was sick. Because going too deep would cause psychosis. So I’d watch keeping up with kardashians, my 600 lb life, etc. Play stupid burner games like cheap games that only play to my interests for a week or so. I kinda kept away from books or read books that I already knew how they turned out, so it wouldn’t be a surprise to my psyche.

Now...idk. I feel myself wanting to challenge myself again. Challenge my intelligence and build my knowledge. And For the first time in my life I’m actively reading a multitude of books. Not just one. And I’m actually reading them. Not just saying I am and hopefully meaning to get around to them.

I wonder if it’s not a big deal to open my psyche/mind back open to new ideas about the world, or just to actively read the challenges of other people, etc, anything that challenges my brain capabilities/capacity. Not like reading/watching horror-type stuff that would put me into psychosis but just opening up to books that make me think deep again.

No I’m not psychotic right now. If anything hypo, but this is something I that has been going on since I been in recovery. For a reason. When I would read my philosophy books again, I’d get into a conspiracy mode of thinking. But I don’t seem to now.

I just bought a 512gb. It was like 80 something dollars! And the 1tb were like 120. But it’s worth it if u download a lot of games.

I just asked my mom for this for my birthday. I’ve wanted an octopus plushie for 3 years now.

Cute! Love octopuses

I think I'm gonna have my sister pick up some Chinese takeout for me next Saturday when she stops by with my money. I haven't had Chinese food in forever. I want some sweet and sour chicken, pork fried rice, and an egg roll

Thanks!

Just bought some duplicate shoes 👟 like just plain black Skechers....the originals were like cracking after two years.....got a chocolate shake from oberweiss and some soap from the soap shop near me....had to get five bars to get the deal.