Roll Call 172

I need new glasses but don't feel like taking the bus then all the way to vision works then having to walk half the way and across a massive highway

I'll do it eventually when I get up enough nerve. It's just that the further I go on the bus the more anxiety I get about possibly missing my stop or getting off at the wrong place

Coffee is kicking in. I love it. I wouldn't function without.

Saying these things calm me

iPrayers.i cld take 10 benadryl and run a marathon.

So proud of u, Blue!!

I have an appointment with my therapist today at 4pm over the phone.

My care manager texted me, she's going to stop by tomorrow just to say hi since it's been a long time since we've actually seen each other, we're just gonna say hi in the parking lot here because I can't have people in the building due to covid and she also can't go into people's homes for now.

Awesome, hope you have good luck with it, just make sure to eat a meal right before you take it

I need to go to Walmart next week probably for some things I need. Also I'm doing my grocery shopping Sunday and Monday at a local grocery store.

Anyway I'm just counting down till Saturday, I want that Chinese food my sister's getting me! It's gonna be so good. I haven't had Chinese takeout in like a year or longer.

Got a fan. I have to leave the ice packs to freeze in the freezer for 4 hours. So at 6pm, I can put one in the fan and fill it up with water and it will blow cool mist =]

Dammit I have lice AGAIN... don't have money to buy lice shampoo right now and the lice comb.

Yummer!!!

I am going to start a new detailed symptom chart tonight. Excited.

Oscillate yourself tonight
When you're in your bed
Assimilate the dopamine
Passing through your head..

I think I need clozapine............................

I am acting really strange as of late and it's bumming me out.

I'm doing very good on 5mg olanzepine every night. No psychosis in over a month! It's gone...

And I'm on day 3 of no benzo. Tomorrow is day 4. I've gonna try and go 2 weeks without. There should be decreasing diazepam in my system to be able to do that. Unless I have another panic attack then I'll take..

Gonna phone the pharmacy and ask when my next injection is.. I think it's next week but not sure..

I heard my phone ringtone playing right next to me in my ear loudly but it wasn't actually ringing

Don’t know if I have diabetes or something else or what. My feet were slightly puffy this morning.

Sorry. I am seeing yellow tracers.

Could be because of heat

I would start thinking about my heart, kidneys, liver.. I would hypochondriac the hell out of myself.. So don't you do that..

I’ve already done that and had an anxiety attack over it

All five of my medicines didnt cost a thing.

That's one thing I love about medicaid in my state, no copays

When I’m half asleep then I wake up, my heart beats really fast that I think there is an earthquake. I wonder what caused that? It lasts for around 10-15 minutes. It’s not just my feeling, it literally beats way faster than normal. I woke up 10 minutes ago and it’s still happening o.O Does any med do this to you?

I wish I could see my pdoc sooner. I am seeing him on Monday, and I feel like I need to see him sooner. But that's the soonest he could see me.

I have had scrambled thoughts, doubts and generally a terrible mood all day. I wish I could make even one decision to help myself. Unfortunately, I cannot.

Meds?

Anxiety disorders can do this and I have experienced it. Thought I was dying.