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#326
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Finished work. I don't know what to do now.
I'm depressed. Psilocybin microdose capsules every other day, ketamine nasal spray that I can either create or get infusions by the doctor, etizolam solution that I can make for relaxation and a replacement for benzos (Because it has low tolerance) and o-desmethyltramadol for it's SNRI and opioid effects would help. I haven't had psychosis in like a month though. I suppose I'll just wait everything out. Things will be better. I'm going on a hike with my mom today. She probably wants to go and do something because she's not going to drink wine for 2 weeks. |
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#327
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Try behavior modification instead of chemicals? If you do stuff you think is fun whether you feel it or not it can lift your mood.
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#328
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Gonna read for half an hour starting in 10 minutes. Slightly anxious about the multiple things that I'm missing out on..
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#329
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I'm stuck in a place that I don't want to be in. I can't draw if I want. I can't focus. I'm addicted to taking something to make myself better. I'm stuck. But I think that once I take something, then I can break habits behaviourly. It's better than it was before where I was just taking things for no reason. |
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#330
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Trying to snap myself out of a panic attack w/dissociation
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#331
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Although can have negative effects. But I don't think of them as having zero meaning compared to changing behaviour - Also chemicals are behaviour. People ingest thousands if not millions of chemicals a day whether they know it or not and it contributes to how they feel. |
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#332
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Gonna read now. I put on reading music to get me started.
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#333
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#334
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But no you're right There's just two sides and I can go to "sobriety" then chase something like a entrepreneur, money, fame, sex, power, relationships, etc.. Or full do it with chemicals. I like to call them molecules now.. idk.. But yeah I'm gonna read while my mom eats something and then we're going on a hike.. |
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#335
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feels like the clozapine is beginning to click. Symptoms aren't all the way better, but I can notice a difference
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#336
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That’s great falcon!
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#337
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Hugs, Blue!!!!
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#338
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Hugs.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#339
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something doesn't feel right. They're telling me we're going to die. I'm not ready to die... I need to bleed. they want to see me bleed. Paranoia and anxiety... It doesn't feel right
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#340
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Who is telling u this, Erti--voices?
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#341
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#342
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Oh. So sorry. What helps? I watched tv when I had mine the other day. It sorta helped.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#343
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I thikn even though I saw demons the other nt that my mood itself is alot up after increasing my fish oil like u all said. Thank u so much. I think it might be helping me!
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#344
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I went for a hike. I feel like I climbed Mt. Everest.. Except it was hot and blue sky...
I'm so tired. I have to sleep in two hours to get up for work in the morning. My mom said that she doesn't think I can handle working too much.. But I'll try.. At least I get extra money. I took anti-inflammatory medicines. My veins are big. I might die soon maybe before age 30. |
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#345
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Right now I'm too tired to research. |
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#346
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Can I just ignore FOMO about everything and just read books in my own world for a month?
It will be like being in a coma. At least it's not heroin |
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#347
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But why? Why can't I just be content with them? They must be perfect... I have to play...
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#348
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#349
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Because people like you and me just want it all to be perfect and we can't really have that in real life.
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#350
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CBD is calming me will sleep soon. I want to read but I guess the day is over.
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