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#776
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so anxious
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#777
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The only good thing about the payment for T is that I don’t have to pay right away. I pay when I get money in. But I can’t go more than 2 sessions over if I haven’t paid. I’ve been on time this whole past year tho. As in honest and responsible with payment.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#778
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Everything is free for me.
But now Canada is 1.1 trillion in debt. And there will be more debt! America is 2-3x in debt though U.S. National Debt Clock : Real Time |
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#779
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Don't know what to do. Paralyzed.
Might sit out in the sun |
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#780
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Was wondering why I’ve been having headaches, anxiety, lack of energy and random depression/crying the past few days then looked at calendar. PMS. So annoying.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#781
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anxiety is better now
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#782
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Hmm.. Ignore what I said. I'm feeling anxious now..
Will drink chamomile tea and take magnesium again |
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#783
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Awwwww...
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#784
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Hugs. And do not wait--get on this now.
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#785
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#786
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#787
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Voted for a primary in my state.
So about the ketamine treatment... insurance doesn't seem to cover it. It costs 500 for each treatment! I might just do it once to see what it's like. Also, i need someone to drive me home. There's a study where i could get it for free... or it might get teh placebo. That would suck. It's worth a try though but getting drives back home will be a pain. This is so inconvenient. |
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#788
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Hugs, Blue!!
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#789
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So, the pdoc fired me because I was changing my mind about whether to see her or not. I think it was a valid reason. I just think my parents have so much influence on me. It's ridiculous. They wanted me to see a different psychiatrist. It's like they have this influence over me and it just wreaks havoc on my life. I fired the T because, guess, my parents wanted me to. And they thought that my relationship with the T was toxic. Unbelievable. Why did I listen to them? I feel like my parents are bullying me to some extent.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#790
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I'm not looking forward to tomorrow when I got to get into a car when doing my blood work... I can't get past this feeling... we're all going to die.
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#791
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I cannot afford a T rt now either. Shame, but we do what we must do. I try to read stuff, do yoga, meditate, exercise. What I can. Asparagae, I care deeply about you, I truly do. It has been my observation over the months listening to you that decision-making can sometimes be a challenging area for you. I relate to that. Do you have thoughts about what could be behind this difficulty? Is there fear about something? For me, it is only the biggest decisions. My fear is that my life will be forever ruined if I make the wrong choice. Hugs!!
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#792
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#793
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Yeah, thanks. It's fear about being wrong. Fear of sounding like a fool. Fear of sounding like I don't know what I'm talking about. Fear that others think I'm crazy or cracked up in some way. Fear of what others think of me in general. Fear of ending up on the wrong path.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#794
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Cause they have control over my money. So that translates to having control over my life I guess? Ugh. It shouldn't.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#795
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Depression awful. Pdoc not for 2 weeks. Gotta somehow make it.
Hey, Des, you ever try any of the AMPA drugs? Thinking of trying. My depression seems to be glutamate-related mostly.
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#796
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I'm also still thinking about doing the intensive outpatient program. I think I need it. It would help me be less indecisive and less impulsive.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#797
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Had this same experience with my parents
Moving out was the. Single. Best. Decision. I’ve. Ever. Made.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#798
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The other thing is that most people care overwhelmingly about themselves, not us. People are selfish. The other thing is that I feel that other people's opinion of me is actually none of my business. It is theirs. Hugs.
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#799
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Last year I tried aniracetam and it didn't do anything. I don't know much about AMPA drugs. Ibotenic acid (In the Amanita muscaria mushroom) is what I haven't tried - It's supposed to be an agonist. An antagonist (L-Theanine) didn't do anything for me. |
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#800
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Don't use colouracetam. It's not tested and people develop permanent tolerance - Which is a red flag for me.
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