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That’s good tho. Reduces your fear of heart trouble.

Yeah my heart fear is way better ^^ I'm able to have a panic attack without wanting to go to the ER. I went like 3 times last year to the ER because I was so scared.

Now panic attacks aren't as scary...

"Your heats is fine"
"Your heart is fine"
"Your heart is fine"

...

Just got in an argument with my parents again re psychiatrist. Ugh. I keep changing my mind on stuff and it makes my parents extremely angry for some reason. I don't really get why. I wish they could just be chill about it.

Have a really bad headache. Just took some ibuprofen

Panic attacks suck so much. I've thankfully only had a very few (can count them on one hand). But I do have anxiety attacks and I had one Sunday And Omg f that... I couldn't perceive anything except that fear and origin is still unknown.

You have come back..

How was these 6+ months?

It's been 7 days without a benzo. Feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack.

So I'm gonna drink chamomile tea and 300mg of magnesium. I'll let you all know if it works..

took my meds

No still feel dissociated. Vyvanse wearing off - Unfocused.

I hope I don't panic.

It's all in the mind. The power of the mind..

It is sleeping within all of you
A force seldom awakened
Undiscoverable by modern science

The intention of our minds is powerful
And a curse

Explore the power of the mind

Dying my hair purple. If it goes well I'll post pictures

I feel sad

hdo.hugs!!

fell asleep at 9, but Albert found a noisy toy at 10 so up again. What a cluster my sleep is.

Feel weird.

Been feeling calm more and sleeping during the night past 2-3 days. Also feeling, not more energy, but usually my body feels heavy and I feel lethargic, but past 2-3 days haven’t been feeling the heavyness feeling. I started the metformin 3 days ago on Sunday. Idk...maybe it’s that.

I always thought the heaviness feeling was cuz I was overweight but this feeling and feelings I get off meds (which is very rare nowadays) proves me wrong. I think the APs make me feel heavy and lethargic.

This is all weird to me because I’m used to anxiety and lethargy and no energy. And now I just feel normal.

Idk how to explain it. I haven’t specifically changed mentally but I feel physically different lately.

It’s so cold out today.....

my hair ended up looking black instead of purple. It has a purple tent to it lmao



oh and you know what's also purple...



we murdered some smurf and as you can tell... lmao[/quote]

Hi everyone. I think I am getting depressed again. I'm not sure if it is depression proper or just because of the work furloughs and COVID stuff. I talk to T on Saturday so I'll bring it up I suppose. I'm getting around to thinking about doing the exercise she suggested for me. Fighting depersonalization/derealization today. Kind of feel like eh.

Hugs SK.....

Did u not bleach your hair beforehand?

Bleach would make my hair thinner and fried then what it already is and my hair has been getting thinner and thinner here lately. stress? idk.

I am good now. Realized my mental health professionals were trying to convince me of some stupid stuff.

I now am going to stop doubting school so much.

I keep eating those pumpkin shaped Reese's. Peanut butter and chocolate is the best. So addicting