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But when we fail to decisively choose, it often creates more problems than had we made the "wrong" choice in the first place. It is just the wrong way to handle things, I learned. If we make the wrong choice, we just deal with it. Nobody is perfect. Not making these decisions is going to cause you more harm the longer you do it. Trust me, took me a long time to learn this. You need to correct this.

The other thing is that most people care overwhelmingly about themselves, not us. People are selfish. The other thing is that I feel that other people's opinion of me is actually none of my business. It is theirs.

Hugs.

I'm honestly going to save that to my computer if you're fine with me doing that. Wow. Thanks for that answer. That really helps.

Wouldn't the Amanita one make me hallucinate? Mushrooms are huge in Oregon cuz they grow wild everywhere. I had Amanita once and had viz hallucinations for 6-8 hrs. Very pleasant, but not good now.

Thnx, Des!!

Voted for a primary in my state.

So about the ketamine treatment... insurance doesn't seem to cover it. It costs 500 for each treatment! I might just do it once to see what it's like. Also, i need someone to drive me home.

There's a study where i could get it for free... or it might get teh placebo. That would suck. It's worth a try though but getting drives back home will be a pain. This is so inconvenient.

Last year I was searching up volunteering at concerts/music festivals etc and making connections like finding friends or travelling the world.

Now everyone's inside and it's video calls and w/e

I'm trying ashwagandha again. I'll see how I am in an hour.

What is that? Ashwagandha?

"Indian Ginseg" is a plant that is used in India for traditional purposes.

It's used as a supplement to decrease stress but I think that it relieves stress.. In a way where I just let it all out... idk..

That's nice, I've never tried it. Hm, not sure if it interacts with my meds or not. But sometimes I drink kava tea. It reduces my stress a fair amount.

I tried kava tea. I drank it a few times but you can't leave the bag unopened for a while cuz a bacteria can grow on it which can cause liver problems.

Yeah fortunately I have the individual packets of kava tea, so they (I hope) stay without the bacteria, haha.

Edit, wait, you said unopened... ?

Don't use colouracetam. It's not tested and people develop permanent tolerance - Which is a red flag for me.

Just got out of inpatient...