Roll Call 181

Yay! I will be spending more time outside, getting that vitamin D

I forgot that bears come out in the Spring and they're hungry.. So I turned around. Too much unmelted snow on the ground to walk on as well.

I had a shower and now in summer shorts. Everyone's outside so I'm gonna go out there and read.

My mom made Irish Stew cooked in Guinness for St. Patricks Day. It's good ^-;

Tomorrow I start work again after the second lockdown. I have a few things planned for today - Just finding it hard to start these things.

Good luck with it!

That is good! It has been a tumultuous winter.

So I bought alcohol today... a bottle of tequila for my sister. Not for me! I owed her some money.

Still not drinking alcohol, and still not buying alcohol for myself.

I can’t wait for payday so I can pay bills and start my savings.

On kratom sharing ice cream with my cat

Watching TV but all I can think about is money and savings and bills and investing.

HYPER FOCUS!

I’m going to pay off debt, build up my savings, and with my degree I’ll double salary and then I’ll be able to save more.

I had a bit of money in my bank account (I get paid next Friday) so I have $42.10 in my savings account.

ITS A START.

I had breakfast, took shower, cleaned my room, went grocery shopping, and did laundry and it’s only 11 am. I’m satisfied with myself today. There’s nothing to do anymore today besides dishes in the afternoon so I’m going to play the sims. I’m taking a break from painting too.

Hyper focused still. Trying to figure if I could afford to put $100 a paycheque because then it would be worth $15,000 in five years... that might be too much to swing $100 biweekly right now. Ugh I wish I could put so much in savings.

Wish wish wish. Ugh.

Maybe I’ll listen to some LinkedIn learning while I’m unable to sleep.

Okay it’s already 11pm I should try to close my eyes and sleep.

I feel extremely organized - An organized mess. I'm making a memory journal again - I'm not posting on a blog.. Just to myself. I'll try and make a blog about more meaningful posts.

I wrote down reminders on my phone - I need med refills, I see my psychiatrist and doctor next week and I'm due for the Invega Trinza shot.

I'm getting up at 6:45am, gonna take Vyvanse and wake up at 7:30am, get ready and go to work. I have everything ready for the morning - Put meds in the right place, wallet, nicotine gum, ear buds (For listening to music while walking to work) - All devices are charging for the night...

The kratom might be working for negative symptoms a little.

I did something bad...

I ate a whole thing of beans

And

It stinks in here

I’m getting back into collecting Pokémon cards

So I wrote last night

More poetry and put together what I think is the best spoken word poetry album I have yet.

Can’t wait to put it on Spotify. Hoping to release the album by next Saturday or sooner.

I was hesitant before when I started with the company but they have stock options where you can contribute a portion of your pay towards stocks and put the growth from your portion into a tax-free savings account. In my hyperfocus yesterday I signed up for it! I regret that I didn't do it three years ago missing out on all the profit. On one hand, maybe it's not very smart to put more money into other things while I still have debt, but I'm trying to be smart and invest.

I wish I had more money to invest and pay off debt.

Oh boo, my line of credit increase has been declined. Because I've been using it too much?? Dumb. Whatever. Have to do it the long way. Focus on paying off my credit card with the most debt, and then my line of credit.

What sucks is I need to lend my mom some money from my tax return/school rebate otherwise I could clear off a big chunk of debt. Boo.

I talked to the bank and if I had collateral in my name I could possibly go for a secured line of credit, or if I was a full-time student I could go for a student line of credit, but they won't extend my unsecured line of credit without me paying down the debt and having more money in my account. Oh well.

Guy on the phone didn't know all what he was talking about. Apparently the student line of credit can be for part time or full time so I booked an appointment to talk about it. Next Friday! Wish me luck.

Found my file from 2-3 years ago when I was evaluated for the disability ticket to work program right before I got my job and they needed a psychologist to evaluate me to help place me in appropriate work setting.

Change of plans. Instead of having lunch out I’m going to my sisters house tonight and she’s ordering food from a Japanese restaurant and dessert from an Italian bakery

I sometimes hate looking back on my files related to my mental health, but sometimes I love looking back on it. It's almost like proof in some way that I have a. gotten better, but b. been in dark places before. Just my impression of that.

So impatient I changed the appointment to Monday instead of Friday. Eek!

now in the 160 range. Victory is mine! Excuse the floor. I need to sweep the floor todaay.