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It's like: I am already disadvantaged by having a mental illness. Then on top of that I have to take these meds that sometimes work and sometimes don't, pay out the *** for a psychiatrist who doesn't always help me and/or prescribe the right thing, see a therapist who encourages me - I may or may not have a job at any given time, and I basically have to put in double the effort that a "normal" person does in any given moment. I am sick of it. That's why I posted the above thing about finding meaning in life. Honestly, the only thing that gives me meaning is studying the Spanish language and writing in it. (Don't tell my family this, wink). Because there are typical reasons that people find meaning in life and sometimes it's like family, kids, etc. My reasons are different. My reasons are intellectually related. Anyway, thanks to everyone who is reading this. I have been having a really hard time lately. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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It's a process.. One med for this, something for that.. There will be many new and better meds in the future - Some of which that used to be illegal.. Others will be analogues, derivatives, etc.. It's not the meds that have any effect in their chemical structure. It's all in the brain - The brain/mind is the experience of consciousness. Mental illness is a certain state of consciousness. There's probably hundreds of different types of depression - Maybe that's why some meds don't work for everyone. Since it's the brain that experiences, there's millions of people that are already on meds/drugs - naturally without even being on meds. It's like saying "All drugs that get you high are bad for society" just like "All meds are bad for myself - Even if I have mental illness". There's people that have been on meds and do well without them because they never needed them in the first place but usually that's just a change of perspective - A massive change.. And it only works because of the anger associated with it.. It can jump start immediate coping mechanisms that haven't been triggered before. That's why psychedelics are being trialed for possibly treating mental health disorders - They cause immediate change. |
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#43
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Thank you sir. I appreciate it. You are very smart, Des - I hope you know that. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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I’m in Canada so I pay to see my psychologist but I don’t pay for regular doctor or psychiatrist. I have insurance benefits that pay for pretty much all my medication and most of my psychologist. I’m lucky in that way. Had I had to pay for anything all out of pocket, I probably never would have opened up to my doctor and done anything about my mental health. If I didn’t have insurance I probably never would have gone on medication or seen a psychologist. Healthcare systems are supposed to help but they help mainly the advantaged. It’s unfair. And brings me meaning aside from my mom, my sister, my dog - is learning. I have to keep myself busy. I love advancing myself and learning and keeping myself busy which is why I decided to go back to school last year. I don’t know who I would be if I couldn’t work and couldn’t learn. |
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#47
It’s really dumb how it works...
Need job to get benefits to pay for medication. But at the same time - needs medication to get job. CATCH 22. |
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#48
Lotsa small good things happening today
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#49
That app Nomo I used to track not drinking says I’ve already saved an estimated $60. Nice.
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#50
I pay everything out of my pocket, but i still feel lucky that I’m getting treatment. I’ve been stable for a while now
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My doctor said because I have ongoing psychotic symptoms, as I said earlier I don’t talk about them on here. I talk about them with my sister and my therapist, doctor and people in my real life but not on here because I feel like it’s personal and I don’t want people in my real life to find me on here. I’m also suicidal a lot. And I’ve been on almost every AP and things aren’t getting better they’re starting to get worse the past two or three months. I know because I don’t post about being suicidal constantly or about my hallucinations and stuff all the time that may seem like I’m stable but I’ve been struggling a lot and I don’t feel comfortable writing some of the things I deal with on here. Plus I ended up in hospital last month for psychotic symptoms and I keep having experiences (again, don't feel comfortable talking about them specifically here) but that I keep almost ending up in the hospital again __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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No worries, no worries. I hope I didn't cause you to feel uncomfortable. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#54
That’s how I am BB. I don’t talk much about my psychosis anymore. I still have it daily on varying levels (just depending on how bad it is or rather how much I can deal with it). But I try to deliberately not focus on my symptoms too much because I have to absolutely NOT stay in my head. Or I will go downhill very badly.
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#55
Eh I don’t really care anymore if people know about my mood and delusional stuff. I don’t think there’s enough info on here to really identify me. I don’t use my name or any big specific details. Hell, I don’t even mention what kind of music or movies I like.
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#56
It totally does. I’ve been on meds for like ten years now.....I can’t help but think they’re slowly destroying my brain and completely changed my personality but I also haven’t been totally psychotic in ten years....there have been blips but that’s it. I now accept that I need the meds and that I’ll juts always be different than I was. I’m embracing the new me even if that new me is thirty pounds heavier.
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Exactly. For me too. It changed my personality and destroyed my brain, I believe. And I’m heavier. I’m trying to accept my weirdness, and difference in that above stuff. I’ve always been weird tho. Like really weird. Which is why I think I don’t vibe right with many people and they don’t seem to stick around. I’ve been on meds for at least half my life. 15-17 years. Since I was 13 or about. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#59
Good things that are happening today:
I got groceries I got ANOTHER free, physical book to review. I got offered to be paid to fix someone’s computer. Stimmy got approved fully pretty much. My dad got fiance a bday gift which saves me money on getting the item by myself. I sent my bro in law and nephew a belated bday present, so that’s done. Bills got paid last night! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#60
People can find me here with my odd thoughts idc
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