Roll Call 181

I haven’t left the bed since I woke up 4 hours ago. I’m on my period and I feel like being lazy today. But feel guilty. But lazy. But guilty 🙃

I've had a decent day today. Sorta depressed for sure and a little anxious.

God my psychiatrist must have forgotten to send my prescriptions to the pharmacy. I was looking forward to taking a Dexedrine this evening. I could use one cuz I'm so tired/unmotivated/unfocused.

Now I have to ask my doctor to prescribe everything on Friday when I get the injection. He might disagree with my psychiatrist on Dexedrine boosters.

He'll have to refill 7 meds on Friday.

I wish I could have a normal sleep. I’m trying but it’s not happening. It takes a long time to fall asleep and then I’m tossing and turning all night

TMI but

The hypomania...

I remember tossing and turning all night through taking certain things.. It's quite horrible so I feel you on that..

I feel like I just have a depressive temperament. There's no solving this.

You are strong and philosophical to death. Introspective smart cookie. Hang in there.

Trying to get my job back for the third time basically. I need to learn how to deal with these impulses.

Anyone else feel like they have to solve everything at nighttime?

Yeah I'm less anhedonic and having racing thoughts at night and feel like my state of mind would be lost the next day after I sleep - Which is true..

My dad told me "You don't have to figure everything out in one day - You have time.. Relax.."

I'm feeling great!! Life is not bad. I have no major problems now. I feel blessed!!

That's great to hear!

True, true. I think taking my meds at a set time at night helps sometimes in regulating those thoughts. In terms of the racing thoughts and stuff and it helps me get to bed at a reasonable hour.

isnt that what cog wanted to do?

i got a laptop with some of my biden bucks

Yes! Great minds think a like.

Manic me wants to do all sorts of weird things.

Feel chatty today. Ranted a couple times already to friends. Hahahaha.

I feel people at work don’t like me because they feel I’m trying to outshine them or take their jobs.

I’m just trying to get my work done as best as I can while suffering from mental health issues. I’m ambitious, yes, but please - you’re not that hot **** to be worth stealing your job.

I feel I’m annoying my RL friends. I keep chatting and chatting and chatting. I’m trying to shut myself up but it’s hard I feel I have to chat. So many things to talk about.

Ugh I am annoying. So annoying. I need to stop.

Ha so did I!

Got to work on avoiding stuff. Meaning not avoiding stuff. I need to be more proactive about not avoiding things.

I think that is one of the symptoms of mania or hypomania. In which case, it's not under your control at the moment and try not to think of it as you are being annoying, but that you are suffering from MI right now that is making you chatty.


IDK if that helps? HUGS Kit

It’s exactly true! I can’t help myself I really can’t.

Trying to focus on work. Trying not to sending a thousand messages to everyone.

Trying not to believe people hate me.

Trying trying trying.

I don't hate you. Hopefully the feeling will go away because I had that feeling too.

Now I just feel like crying. Ugh I’m a mess.

Now I feel hyper and chatty again!

Parkour!