Roll Call 182

Job 30 26 · Apr 05, 2021, 09:21 PM

What happened 4 months ago, Cog?

Blue_Bird · Apr 05, 2021, 10:32 PM

I only slept one hour last night and tonight again I can't sleep, I don't know what to do

Desoxyn · Apr 05, 2021, 11:14 PM

What do I do with life...

It has no use to me o.-

Desoxyn · Apr 05, 2021, 11:41 PM

My forever emotion is stress.

"I feel happy", "I feel sad"..

Me: "I feel stress.."

WastingAsparagus · Apr 05, 2021, 11:54 PM

My computer fell on the floor earlier today. Near brush. Hopefully it's not screwed up now.

WastingAsparagus · Apr 05, 2021, 11:56 PM

Also when I lift weights and run afterwards I feel like taking on the world. Don't know what that means necessarily. In tonight's case it just meant writing in my journal after drinking some coffee. But that's taking on the world, slowly but steadily. I am also planning for tomorrow.

WastingAsparagus · Apr 05, 2021, 11:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

My forever emotion is stress.

"I feel happy", "I feel sad"..

Me: "I feel stress.."

I heard something interesting about stress recently that too little stress can be bad and too much stress can be bad. So it's all about finding that sweet spot I suppose. Easier said than done.

Desoxyn · Apr 06, 2021, 12:00 AM

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My computer fell on the floor earlier today. Near brush. Hopefully it's not screwed up now.

I dropped my macbook like 100 times but it still works lol.. My old computer fell on it's side and looked like it exploded.

WastingAsparagus · Apr 06, 2021, 12:07 AM

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I dropped my macbook like 100 times but it still works lol.. My old computer fell on it's side and looked like it exploded.

Haha but dropping the computer is an awful feeling. Gotta admit.

WastingAsparagus · Apr 06, 2021, 12:15 AM

Also wondering why I gravitate towards sad music. Oh well. Who cares. I just like to feel the music more I guess.

Blue_Bird · Apr 06, 2021, 05:16 AM

I've slept 1 hour in the past 48 hours, I can't sleep still, idk what to do about it

Blue_Bird · Apr 06, 2021, 05:24 AM

My giant seal plush should be here today

cogladaid · Apr 06, 2021, 07:09 AM

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What happened 4 months ago, Cog?

I got a promotion which sent me into a manic episode lol.

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junkDNA · Apr 06, 2021, 08:37 AM

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Hi guys. I asked old T if I could come back and have therapy with her (we ended because of her MS but she is working again) but she told me no. That I need to keep working with current T. I'm so hurt. I have an internal locus of control so I am blaming myself of course. I tried to process it with current T but it didn't go so well. I don't really think current T got my distress.

why did old T say no? that must hurt, im sorry

WastingAsparagus · Apr 06, 2021, 08:39 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I've slept 1 hour in the past 48 hours, I can't sleep still, idk what to do about it

Can you talk to your doctor about ways to sleep better?

Exercise can help with sleep. It helps me.

Sleep is good!

Sorry you're struggling with it.

Also: 17 Proven Tips to Sleep Better at Night

junkDNA · Apr 06, 2021, 08:40 AM

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I don't know what to do with myself. As time goes on, I'm beginning to see just how damaged I am. I think I may be either schizotypal or schizoid personality disorder, because of the fact I can't have mental emotions, I can't feel lonely, and a host of new problems show up because of it. I'm thinking the schizoid one... This is really bad news for me. One of the symptoms is that they can't form meaningful relationships. That's a dagger to the heart.

Also, I'm seeing a lot of people heavily criticize me, im mean deep criticisms, even hatred towards me, a group actually thinks I'm satan! lol I'm more troubled than I ever realized. It's like water running through my fingers, I can't control it. My trauma has gotten better, I can still be an asshole here and there though. I'm always doom and gloom because I can't feel positive emotions. This mental illness keeps bringing me to my knees, and it weights on everyone around me. I feel like I'm just a burden, and the longer I live the more people absolutely *hate* me.

well the good news is that people with schizoid P.D. have no desire to form meaningful relationships. so if you find yourself wanting that then its doubtful that you have schizoid pd

newtus · Apr 06, 2021, 09:00 AM

Sad because fiancé is sick. Probably a cold tho or something a little worse? Idk he doesn’t have a fever but is going to the doctor soon.

Sad because I can’t get my cat food. Trying to find something to feed her. She won’t eat pate wet food but just maybe she will this one time idk. I will try to feed her that. She like 100 percent pure chicken breast in water. Which is expensive as hell. But she has no teeth soooo. She’s gonna be 16 years old in 2-3 months. Love this cat so much. Had her since she was 5 months old and I was 15 years old! Now I’m 30. I just wanna give my cat the life she dreams of haha.

Sad because...
Everyone I know been asking me where I been. I been reclusive and busy.

cogladaid · Apr 06, 2021, 09:24 AM

Don’t get mad at me guys, but I had to do something to rid myself of depression. I took some leftover SSRIs I had around. And it worked! I feel great this morning. Maybe a little weird but I feel happy!

Don’t try this at home. Do as I say, not as I do.

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junkDNA · Apr 06, 2021, 09:35 AM

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Don’t get mad at me guys, but I had to do something to rid myself of depression. I took some leftover SSRIs I had around. And it worked! I feel great this morning. Maybe a little weird but I feel happy!

Don’t try this at home. Do as I say, not as I do.

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im glad ur feeling better. it might be a placebo effect though bc ssris take days to weeks to build up in your blood before theyre effective

junkDNA · Apr 06, 2021, 09:36 AM

today is day 5 of my 7 days off. yesterday i didnt do anything at all. today i want to do something a little bit productive lol

newtus · Apr 06, 2021, 09:37 AM

She ate her pâté food

junkDNA · Apr 06, 2021, 09:40 AM

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She ate her pâté food

boby loves pate, especially seafood types

cogladaid · Apr 06, 2021, 09:43 AM

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im glad ur feeling better. it might be a placebo effect though bc ssris take days to weeks to build up in your blood before theyre effective

I’ve had it happen before that SSRIs send me hypomanic even after a couple days. But yeah never know.

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newtus · Apr 06, 2021, 11:15 AM

I felt like I was about to pass out

I don’t think I ate enough past 2 days

newtus · Apr 06, 2021, 11:16 AM

I really did. I had to hurry and make food and rush to the couch cuz I started shaking, feeling dizzy, and yea, cold.

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