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Jul 09, 2008, 04:31 AM
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"There are no more barriers to cross. All that I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the viscous and the evil, all of the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it, I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted upon others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this there is no catharsis. My punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing."
This is one of the most beautiful monologues I have heard. My conflict is that it completely describes my most inner thoughts. I decided to post this here in hope that someone can guide me in a direction other than the path of destruction that I have been on for so long. I am unable to seek treatment on my own, and hope that an angel will intervene and carry me through this. |
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Jul 09, 2008, 08:32 AM
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> My punishment continues to elude me...
Maybe it's time to start thinking about some rewards for your self.
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Now if thou would'st When all have given him o'er From death to life Thou might'st him yet recover -- Michael Drayton 1562 - 1631 |
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