Issues with degree path, classmates, intelligence

I am 23 years old, male, I was on track to pursue a degree in mathematics but that ended this semester when I had to drop my real analysis class. I am terrible at proofs, I couldn’t even do Induction on simple polynomials which is mostly algebra in my previous class. But I told myself that was okay because I can just take actuarial exams and forgo a degree. However today in my probability class, we were given a quiz over the material that we had touched on and the student next me answered all the questions before I could answer one question. I felt like a freaking idiot. Two of the kids in my class have a GPA of 3.9 or higher. Then I get on my online class for probability for the P exam and whenever a question is given we are told to pause the video and try ourselves, I can almost never get the answer without seeing the work. Then I went to a firing range to try and cool off some steam and zero my ar for the first time. The maximum distance was 25 yards a joke right? Out of 40 shots I hit the center once and that was only by aminim rifle over the center at least 7 inches above it…no matter how I adjusted my MOA I was alsways off and could not get the bullet to be within an inch of my center….This made me feel even more retarded. I just quit marijuana and alcohol a few days ago. I am on an unusual amount prescriptions: vyvanse, omeprazole, Strattera, alprozalm, oxycodone (refereeing, yes odd, but I hate the job and always cold), 3 benedryl and melatonin every night for sleep. Maybe the combination of prescriptions is a problem idk, I am not sure if I should drop out of school completely or what, I am not a good writer, I appearently suck at math, I couldn’t make it past organic chemistry II, so there is really nothing left for me and I have suicidal thoughts. I thought about ending myself but changed my mind.

Hello kgibson45: I recall replying to another of your posts on this topic. I don't really know what to tell you about this. You're on a bunch of medications plus you've just quit marijuana & alcohol. To me, it seems to make sense you'd be having difficulties with your studies as well as with shooting. I don't know about dropping out of school entirely. Perhaps, under the circumstances, it might be worth considering taking some time off if possible to get things more under control especially if your lack of ability to do your school work is causing you to feel suicidal.

Beyond that I would think what would be important would be to make sure you continue to stay away from the marijuana & alcohol, & then to talk with your prescribing physician about what you're experiencing to see if there aren't some changes that can be made in your med's so that you can begin to function more normally. Once you can do that, then it may be at least a bit easier to come to a decision as to whether or not school is for you, at least at the present time.