I am only young. He tells me i only act happy because i need a goodn "seeing to" this translates as i need a guy to have sex with me. But im going out with a girl.
He told my parents that i must be on drugs and they threatened to throw me out. I have never even smoked a cigarette.
All i want to do is make my family proud of me. I am like one of those American kids who does well in sport just to get a scholarship for college so i can actually land a decent job and have a less stressful life......

Worst of all he continually crushes my self esteem. He basically says i am ugly. Hes like oh look at that chick on the poduium shes talented AND hot. He says he will get one of my team mates to beat me up if i ever stick up for myslelf. So i say they will have fat chance if i had a gun so training is pointless uness you can learn to dodge bullitts for f @#ks sake.
He derides and downs me infront of everyone, and treats me like i am naive. I know so much more than i make on but i would rather be light hearted. He made a fool of me yesterday by sayng in front of some rich parents that if i could not afford to buy shoes from his shop i could look in discount store tk maxx.
So i got a job. I train and i study and i work. I am so tired not just literally but weary. I cant see where i am going and i cry every night. I cut my feet and stomach yesterday for some temp relief.
I always get dumped maybe i am not attractive. At least i have a brain. If that goes. Well stuff it all. I am out of here

[scarlett35]

He sounds like a horrible coach! I honestly don't know what id do in that situation as you seem a bit stuck. It depends on how reliant you are on this guy in terms of your future.

If you're not, then I'd personally take it further but if you can't then you might have to just take it on the chin and know you're better than that, plus have a rant when you need to but never forget that the way he treats you is not a reflection of your worth.

Yes well there has to be other ways that i can gain my education. Life shouldn't be this hard all my friends tell me, i am so stubborn.
My biggest fear is ending up like my deadbeat father. So what ppl think hes intelligent. All he has done for ten years is sit on his ar#e. I will start from the bottom but not him. He isnt fit to earn what he used to so he gave up. If i give up sport i might end up like him and i would rather jump.
I think i have inherited his depressive gene and i am cursed

[Fuzzybear]

Hypocrites? **** them all .......

I'm sorry your father is so depressed. Maybe he isn't simply a "deadbeat" but I don't know your situation enough to make a "judgement"

I would rather jump than something I will not speak of so I understand something of your pain and dilemma

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I totally agree with scarlett35. Sending big hugs.

Why is it so hard to forgive?
I want more than anything to forget but i cant forgive. I am not a pacifist.
The road to hell is paved with good intentions

I escaped a suicide attempt last night...

I have been put on anti psychotic meds and 28 day in patient because i did some out of character things.

I try so hard to be someone.

My mum says i will be sick for the rest of my life now and they will not see me and asked doctors to put me in care

I have lost it it all. When they let me out i dont know what i will do.

[scarlett35]

Originally Posted by SapphireRed

I escaped a suicide attempt last night...

I have been put on anti psychotic meds and 28 day in patient because i did some out of character things.

I try so hard to be someone.

My mum says i will be sick for the rest of my life now and they will not see me and asked doctors to put me in care

I have lost it it all. When they let me out i dont know what i will do.

I am so glad that you did not lose your life. *hugs* we are here for you. You haven't lost it all. Focus on getting yourself better. That has to come first! Everything else can stuff it for now

[Bill3]

((((SapphireRed)))))



I am so glad that you escaped.

My mum thinks the sun shines put of my now former coaches *** pardon the phrase. She says i am a liar and i am sick and that once you land in a psyche ward that is u on a one way ticket in and out your whole life.
One of my male friends told me that so called coach of mine told him to stay away from me because he wont be able to handle what ppl say about the "funny farm" and that he shouldnt consider me girlfriend material just to feel sorry for me and i wasnt good enough for him.
The two faced machavallian pr&$k coach had the gall to say to my parents that its such a shame as i WAS talented. I have been written off like a car to a scrap heap. So my - turned round qnd said that he knew i would end up a waste of space like my deadbeat father. He was trying to be "hard" why are guys like this? Have to prove they are topdog.
My girl has dropped of face of planet. I am all alone. I dont want to be here anymore.

What is the dss or dla?? For british users. A "sympathetic" nurse said that people like me who live of DSS?? (What) make her sick and i needed taking down a peg or two. Im not on DSS wtf??

What did i do to deserve such cruelty. I am going on the run soon as my opportunity arises. My old life is dead. I cannot be around this viciousness any longer.

[Fuzzybear]

I'm so sorry a "nurse" said that to you, I'm also in the uk and I think you'll find more sanity and definitely more kindness here on pc

You didn't do anything to deserve any cruelty. Some people are just mean (understatement)

Keep posting

[scarlett35]

Originally Posted by SapphireRed

My mum thinks the sun shines put of my now former coaches *** pardon the phrase. She says i am a liar and i am sick and that once you land in a psyche ward that is u on a one way ticket in and out your whole life.
One of my male friends told me that so called coach of mine told him to stay away from me because he wont be able to handle what ppl say about the "funny farm" and that he shouldnt consider me girlfriend material just to feel sorry for me and i wasnt good enough for him.
The two faced machavallian pr&$k coach had the gall to say to my parents that its such a shame as i WAS talented. I have been written off like a car to a scrap heap. So my - turned round qnd said that he knew i would end up a waste of space like my deadbeat father. He was trying to be "hard" why are guys like this? Have to prove they are topdog.
My girl has dropped of face of planet. I am all alone. I dont want to be here anymore.

What is the dss or dla?? For british users. A "sympathetic" nurse said that people like me who live of DSS?? (What) make her sick and i needed taking down a peg or two. Im not on DSS wtf??

What did i do to deserve such cruelty. I am going on the run soon as my opportunity arises. My old life is dead. I cannot be around this viciousness any longer.

I'd get as far away from that coach as you can! He sounds like a horrid person. Keep going! I think being in a psyche ward is nothing shameful. The world we live in can be a cruel place and there's no harm in needing help. You're in the best place for you at the moment! If you needed surgery and went on a ward for it there would be judgement so there shouldn't be for mental health issues *hugs*

Keep us posted! And look after yourself !

I was watching beach volleyball
Oh yeah , nice beaches I reply sarcastically and suggestively
He thinks I am dead serious and says more like nice peaches,you have a lot of growing up to do...
I just shake my head and walk off. I obviously meant the eye candy . Thanks a bunch. Insert alternative to a $$wipe here

Doctor tells me I will find it difficult to conceive as I have bad clotting in cycle meaning the lining isn't healthy enough for egg to attach to.
A $$wipe snidely says to me if I get knocked up I will have to quit and laughs making a fool of me as usual. He says this because someone caught me doing "walk of shame" which is utter nonsense. I was at a male friends house and i walked home just before midnight. I stress FRIRNDS and the fact it wasn't morning. I am not a trollope. I can't wait to leave high school and escape everything revolving around sex. The world doesn't revolve around sex. It's love and friendship. Can I add fun?

Hi wuup2? Just job hunting. I shrink into my black beanie. Just chilling for now then. Yeah. First time someone has actually gave me some good advice. But they didn't accept my fb friend request. But it's ok. I hardly blame them. I had really dug myself a grave

Sometimes we take things at face value and take people s words to heart. Sometimes guys can be reckless with words.
When I passed my driving test, Fred put the fear of death in me and I was terrified to get even a scratch on his car. After stopping wearing heels,painting my nails and barely putting on much make up. He said I couldn't afford to crash the car.
It was ages before I plucked up courage to drive. I had forgotten all the inst ructions on parking. I went to park at my parents and the space was a little tight. So I swung car round trying different angles and I parked like half a metre from where I was aiming
But I was scared to death of bumping car after Fred.
My neighbour came into my mum's and was a proper dik. My first ever parking attempt. I didn't hit anything and Fred didn't help me at all. And he said that he knew it was a woman driving as it was one of the worst parking try out s he had witnessed in a long time.
Well I hadn't driven after my test I'd left a gap. Fred didn't help me. I was nervous. And scared to hit anything. All considering. Hardly any wonder some find it hard to MUST Ard the courage . I can see why a one off crash can dent someone's confidence and cause them PTSD. All it takes is one bad comment or experience to change perspective. A hundred people can say you are good yet one person has an awful day and says something terrible and you remember that one bad comment.
I was good at my sport and I am a cautious and careful driver who "touch wood" has stayed out of danger. I hate to tempt fate. I think the guy has changed after marrying the right person. I wish we would wake up and see that words hurt the most. reason deen